The spiders are my company
I am so tired of being played a fool. It's one thing to feel ignorant about something, but it's another when someone believes you to be totally and utterly stupid and just takes advantage of you. If there's something that just really makes me want to hurt someone is definetly people thinking I'm an idiot.
God, I'm just so tired of getting walked on and forgotten...It just makes me feel miserable and just someone to hang out with when no one else will. You know, that feeling has been lingering around for nearly that past week now, and it doesn't seem to want to go away. I really to get out of Searcy. I want a social life, I want someone that I can count on...I guess I want a boyfriend. I don't know what I want, but I know I don't want to be alone every. Single. Night looking at my phone think someone MIGHT call me. Again, I think this is due to me sitting at home passing the time doodling and brooding. This feeling of inadequentness has just seemed to last longer than usual. I mean, my last post was just as depressing as this one...
I really wish I could just let out my frustrations to the wall or just scream, but it wouldn't help...I'm just ready for tomorrow afternoon. I'll get the fuck away from here and hang out with Amber & Co., and hopefully, I'll feel a little better once I get back.
Heather