Entry #36: Why...?

[aikouikirisu]

I had already pre-written something for when I got internet to explain what happened...but a lot of it isn't true anymore.  Here it is....

"Where to start?" is something I often do at the beginning of these things...alas I've found that I just do it to figure out what I want to write first

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[aikouikirisu]

I know I left a lot of blanks in this... I was just so upset while writing this. We didn't start fighting, but things started going downhill due to the apartment...mainly due to my lack of a job. Matt was pretty much overloaded with stress and this is his solution for now. Because every decision he has to make he has to keep me in mind. So...I am going to Hope Haven... a shelter for people in a bind like me. They help people find jobs, save money, and places to live afterwards. Currently he can't support me as well...so...we are taking a break. The best thing right now, because we can start as friends and work our way up the ladder when things really get better for the both of us.

I have to get a job, find a place of my own, and then work on a couple of things. Especially mentally... I agree with him on this even though it is difficult...I want to do things right with him and this is how it has to be right now.

[2shadowwriter2]

Hey. things will get better, you just weren't ready that's what happens. its like you said 'trial and error' that's how we get through life. just don't give up, if you need help don't be afraid to turn to friends. Things between the two of you will workout and if its meant to be it will happen, you already believe its meant to be so your already half there, it will get harder for you from here on, don't give up and you'll get what you need and want out of life. I Promise. :)