Well! What a trip it has been for me! It’s nearing the end of May, aka nearing month 2 since my IUD insertion in (wow!) March!
I’m going to keep it short because this is going to be a frighteningly honest update. Basically, all my spotting literally STOPPED on May 2nd. For the next 2 weeks after that I had random discharge happening. And then after that- nothing came out of my vagina. Absolutely nothing. Up until now, I still have nothing. Normally I would have had my period starting around the 20th-25th (aka- right around Fanime). I didn’t. And that, was, AMAZING.
This was a sign of several things: the IUD was working. And I might be in that 50% where my period will stop PERMANENTLY (until the IUD is removed). And that in theory it could provide other misc benefits soon as well (i.e., acne loss… which hasn’t happened, but who knows!)
However. And a big however. I simultaneously noticed several other things going on. These incidences could also be coincidences and/or just bad habits and completely unrelated to the hormones that are in the IUD, but y’know, they happened at the same time:
-Hair loss. I normally have hair loss cause I have low calcium or whatever minerals that are needed to keep hair healthy anyways, PLUS i dye my hair and thus only wash it when I REALLY need to, but for the past unknown period of time, I’ve noticed while my hair is still thick cause luckily I’m young, I have huge huge huge huge huge amounts of hair loss. I can’t remember when it started. But I just suddeny have a frightening, frightening, frightening amount everywhere.
-Health-related motivation problems. Ofc, I’ve had procrastination since like forever. And this can also be related to the self esteem issue that Melody mentioned. But I’ve also felt this sudden intense intenser than normal hatred towards myself for oversleeping, not taking medication on time, undersleeping (I’ve seriously slept so little in the month of May!), not eating enough, etc. So much etc. In April i had these problems too and I’d thought- oh in May I’ll fix everything up and get enough sleep and stuff! HA. Failed.
-More depressing thoughts. That chuck of stuff at the end of Fanime. Just go to my
Fanime REAL con report and you’ll see what’s up with that. My IUD is a hormonal method and those mood swings, they definitely happen with other hormonal birth control (pill, patch, depo shot, nuva ring, etc). I can’t help but wonder… what if it’s not actually me that’s thinking or acting out this depressing shit? What if… it is my IUD’s hormones…
If with that… I guess I’ll have to figure out what’s going on. Whatever it is, all I know is that the IUD is working and doing it’s job. Me on the other hand? Maybe not.