20loves - Emily/Ana
This is an original fic, based on Emily's relationship with Ana. Read and understand what I'm talking about here. Community is 20loves. Table 11234Do you love me?
No.
I love you.
I know. Do you forgive me for falling for you?I would rather walk the earth next to you as a ghost, than go to heaven and never see you again.You look at me and my heart melts, even though you don't even try. 5678The day you left I thought I would die. Strange thing was that was when I truly began to live.If you ever cared about me, even for a moment, leave now. Don't look back, just leave.Even though you never told me you loved me, I know you do. I can feel it. You're worth it. 9101112If I had known that simply loving you was enough, I would have done that long ago.I would give anything to simply hold you again. You knew I didn't care, but you stayed. You stayed and I hate you for it, because before I knew it I fell for you.It's moments like this that make all the pain and sorrow worth it. 13141516I would rather watch you from the shadows if only to ensure your happiness.That was a wicked thing to say because I know you never felt that way. All the talk about growing old and dieing old isn't my thing. I want to die young with you. That way I'll always carry this version of you with me.So why don't we go somewhere only we know.17181920Don't ever doubt my love for you again.Know what will make me happy? If you walk out that door and find someone who will make treat you right. I can die happy if I know you're happy.Can I keep you?Author's ChoiceTable 21234I don't know if I should hit you or kiss you.I don't know what love is, or how it feels. I'm not even sure it exists. But if this is love, then I'm happy.One of these days you'll be mine. That will be a sad day.I don't use words like love and hate. Don't believe in them. So I hope you never expect me to say those words to you.5678I look at you and my heart breaks.Don't talk to me about death. I'll be the one to die before you because without you I'm as good as dead.You caused me so much heartache. I couldn't eat or sleep because of you. At those moments I hated you. And yet I don't regret a single moment I spent with you.It's simple. Just love me and I'll be happy.9101112I don't think I'll ever feel this strongly for anyone ever again, no matter how hard I try.I loved you with every ounce of my being. But I knew you never would love me that way. And you know the sad thing about it all? I didn't care.If I’m dreaming, never let me wake. If I’m awake, never let me dream.I thought being with you would hurt more than being alone. I was wrong, and now we can never go back ot the way things were before.13141516We were friends, then I gave you my heart and there the story ends.Don't tell me you love me, it's not who you are. I want to die without hearing those words. That would be a wonderful way to die.The other day I woke up and I swear I smelled you in the air. But when I rolled over you weren't there. I got mad at myself for getting happy.You know when you left I stopped dreaming.
Why?
You were my dream.17181920I will break your heart by breaking my own.I can't see you, but I know you're there. I can feel you.I hate you. I hate the way you look at me, and the way you talk to me. I hate the way you make me feel. I hate the way I'll watch the door waiting for you. I hate the fact that I don't think I can live without you.Author’s Choice