Morning...kinda sorta. Yeas, I'm bloody exhausted. I cant freaking sleep anymore. That makes me terribly sad. Every time I try to get some sleep, something happens that drives me absoloutly nuts and then it's the same every time. I stare at the clock from 3 till 4 then pass out and wake up screaming. Too many nightmares I guess. Damn it. Sometimes ( Read more... )

I dont know. Things arent bad. Feeling a remarkable downfall in happiness though. I'm not sure what is wrong. I'm totally happy with Tyler. <3 him to pieces I just dont know. I know I'm not the oly one that ever gets like this. I got a call from an old friend...He was kinda upset that I've been so happy. That makes me really damned sad. I dont know ( Read more... )

Got to school at 5:30 this morning. I'm so tired. Came here just to work out for an hour. Gunna do more every other day with Jenn. I want to lose more weight. I'd look better that way. -shrugs- Maybe it's just how I am, I just think I'll feel better if I do something I'm good at. Artwork, writing, and losing weight ^-^. Besides, there's nothing ( Read more... )

Hey everyone! What's up and how was everyone's vacation?? Lol. I'm talking to YOU! Lol. Wow, sorry, kinda uppity today if thats even a word. I dun remember if it is or not. I had an absoloutly great vacation. Here we go.....(yay for you ( Read more... )

It's now 8 o'clock in the place known as Lockport High School. I can see where this day is going already. I'll be ok until about lunch time when I realize that I'm not gunna be able to talk to Ty till maybe like 4 tonight. Thats a long time. Lol. I stayed on the phone with him till really late last night. Finally got off and passed right out. He ( Read more... )

Hickeys be damned! The fucking things hurt like a bitch and yet..I feel all special and such ^-^. Lol. I'm out for now. Gotta go see ty <3

Yays! so I just got hom and I'm just really happy and giddy and what not. Scary, I know but damnit! I like it! so, here we go ( Read more... )

I havent wrote in forever. I got myself a new journal so that I dont have certain peoples comments popping up onto it. It seems like some people just love trying to make my self esteem go down but it doesnt work anymore, cuz I just dont care. I'm so happy right now save for the whole situation with my friend but i'm sure i'll find some way to work ( Read more... )

strip all the pain away...let it fade away.....take all the pain away....and let my mind run astray.....Rip off all the pain I hold....and take it into your soul.....strip me down so that I'm cold...leaving me with nothing....empty when I used to be full...take all the pain away.....pull it to the side...abuse me like your dog to make me stay..... ( Read more... )