i cant help from hating myself for not being able to let go. let go of the things i have wanted, let go of the people i have wanted so badly to stay close to. let go of feelings, feelings that i hate myslef for having and which i dont understand why they still exsist, how they could still exsist under the circumstances. i cant help from the pangs ( Read more... )

i like good apologies.
and flowers....

i feel like i have lost everything
and i have nowhere to turn to

Be on the lookout for tall, dark and extremely sensuous to stroll by. Today could well be the day that you meet that exotic foreigner you've been fantasizing about. Congratulations -- to you both.

this is what SmarterChild told me my horiscope was for today

i swear i fall for it everytime. im done putting myself out on the line, giving my all, because im the one who gets hurt.
this time is different, trust me.
no, its always the same
the same ending
the same love song playing on my record player
the same heartbreak
im done
im a donkey

RULES:
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Parenthises around those that don not apply to you

3. Bold the ones that best apply to you.
4. Put all twelve months under a cut

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. (Extraordinary ideas). Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. (Can become good ( Read more... )

"i took a walk outside along the beach, watched the waves roll on the shore" and everything else ( Read more... )

most people who know me know that i have a pretty unusual family background. none the less they are still my family and i love them with all their faults. my aunt joan has gone through a lot of shit in her life and i am happy to find her in good spirits. here is a link to an article that she was interviewed for in the idaho state journal. i make ( Read more... )

so the punk voter tour was fun, i had a great time with amanda ( Read more... )

soooo my school actually did something cool. they did an advanced screening and showed kill bill one and two one after the other for ten bucks ( Read more... )