Beyond Upset

[ajax4ever]

My ex best friend has been ignoring me. Hardcore. Making me feel like I have absolutely no value. I sent them an email asking them if they didn't want to be my friend then simply tell me...don't continue to ignore me and make me feel like I have no value because I'm not a priority to them. Instead of responding, they simply delete me from their

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[shinynickels]

You aren't worthless. Whatever his reason is doesn't matter. What does matter is you aren't as important to him as he is to you. I had a friend I thought was my best friend until I realized the only reason she was my friend was because I made her feel better about herself. She'd never hang out or talk to me unless she needed something, and whenever I'd try to talk to her when I needed her, she'd only half listen and then change the conversation back to her. She "accidentally" removed me from her LJ, so I sent her a message on facebook and after getting a weak response, decided she wasn't going to affect my emotions any more.

I don't know what his deal is, but you're probably better off not having him in your life. :/

[ajax4ever]

Thanks. I know what his deal is. He is just not interested in dealing with any of the hurt I am going through from our break up. Out of sight out of mind. If losing him was easy for me to get over I would honestly doubt that I loved him in the first place. I'm not one to hurt someone and then avoid them because I'm not interested in the hurt I caused them.

[kilika]

I agree. You are better off. You should have deleted him way before now. Him just "hanging around" seemed to make it worse.

[ajax4ever]

"Hanging around" did make it worst because he told me he still wanted to be friends, but then he just didn't speak to me or acknowledge me at all. How he was behaving didn't match up with my idea of what a friend should be, so I was in an emotional limbo about it. I just didn't want to lose my partner *and* my best friend. I don't think it would have made things worst if he simply told me, "Yes, I miss you, I do still care, you're still my friend." Even if he is over me and doesn't see me day to day, I just wanted some reassurance that he does still care even if he doesn't care as much as I do. I never expected someone I loved and cared for so deeply just act like they didn't care about me at all. I let things slide for three weeks because I didn't want another clear indication that he didn't care, that he didn't want to remain friends, regardless of what he told me before. It hurts to feel like I fail at being a friend, when it's really him doing the failing.