i had the best sex of my life last night. For hours. HOURS!! I got like 3 hours of sleep last night, didnt eat anything from lunch yesterday till lunch today, and worked a ten hour day, and i DONT CARE cause i'm high on sex! I had the best time, perfect mix of rough AND sensitive ( Read more... )

So... im a water truck driver for the new max line thats going in between mall 205 and clackamas. i have to fill my truck with a fire hydrant, and my hydrant broke, so i had to have a City of Portland guy come out to fix it... turns out he's super hot... and tall... and i may have flirted a little... but i didnt think i had a chance in hell, and ( Read more... )

(sigh) a little down today. lonely, i guess. saw some good friends, but still. i just want someone to cuddle up with for a bit, thats what i really need. i hate being so dependent on other people, but i literally NEED people in order to function. (sigh) I need to get out of this place, and find somewhere to live with someone. arrrgh. i need ( Read more... )

i need a place to crash for a month, starting may 14, cause i'll be down there for union training, and i need a place to stay... just a couch and a shower... easy couple hundred bucks... ????

tell me to give up, tell me that i dont have a chance in hell, tell me i'm a fool. because i dont want to do this anymore ( Read more... )

tell me what to do, how to figure out what to do with my life. Show me how to be happy again. let me fall in love with someone that will really love me, and not walk away. let me stop chasing the one i want, and let him come and find me. make me give up, and walk away, and not fight for my love. show me how to bitch out on what i believe in. ( Read more... )

i lost it yesterday. was supposed to go to bar night, but just sat in my car and cried for a few hours. i wanted to go down there, but i just couldn't get myself to stop. i didn't want to fuck up everyones evening, so i just drove my retarded self down to the fucking waterfront and just sat in my car in the dark for a while ( Read more... )

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Yesterday Brian called me to hang out with him at the bar, his friday, and all the boys were ot of town. So i went down and had coffee with him and listened to the music, some guy was playing that was really good, i was impressed. Sam Marshall, or something... good stuff. We talked about some stuff and had a good time, not really awkward, just ( Read more... )

Last night was Tuesday night Pub night, and it was good. It's been a little strained for the last few weeks because Brian and I broke up, and its been hard. I've been battling with myself to be strong enough to handle the situation like an adult. So last night no one was going to come out, but Brian came just to see me, he knew no one else was ( Read more... )