i did a good job at staying busy this weekend, i made sure to stay out of my apartment as much as possible, so that i wouldn't spend all my time crying. So friday night i played at Dennys with DJ until about 4 in the morning... just like old times. Very therapeudic and helpful, Deej is by far one of my favorite and most helpful friends. Makes me ( Read more... )

lets see... what have i done this last year ( Read more... )

i had planned to originally quit smoking for new years, but upon recent developments, that is not a feasable option right now... what with my emotional issues and all ( Read more... )

so for the last few days ive been losing myself in my job, trying not to think about how much i love him, and i'm just not doing well. i dont know how to deal with this other than a day at a time, and all i want to do is curl into a ball and sob the day away. everything reminds me of him, and everything that doesn't i have an active imagination ( Read more... )

anyone have one for cheap or for free, cause im poor...? i have a little hand held one, and i really dont want to have to crawl all over my floor to get it clean.

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http://www.transformersmovie.com/main.html

new transformers trailer...

(drool)

so.. excited...

whan did i become so weak? why am i not strong and independent anymore? Is it a choice to be sad, becuse its all i feel. Work, home, drink myself numb. thats how i roll.

i'll pretend that everythings okay, that i'm not dying, that i don't spend my days in a fog of misery and only come out of my darkness when i have the money to drink it away. That the pain controls my life, that i have no hope or cares anymore because the only thing that mattered has gone. That my life has no meaning, it's a pointless waste of ( Read more... )

You slay me ( Read more... )