so i have my interview tomorrow at Walmart, and i'm really fucking nervous. I hope they want to rehire me, heh. Went to katie's little party thing last night, it was pretty fun. But i saw one person vomit and hear another person vomiting so thats gross and ppl need to know when to stop. Other than that nothing much is up. but having a girlfriend is ( Read more... )

Hahahahahaha. Alrighty then. Get a fucking clue, and calen just described himself in a journal entry, how ridiculous is that.

Ps. im glad i didnt tell you everything, live your fucking lie, bask in stupidity, youre such a bitch i really dont care anymore.

ive decided to stop wasting my time on people that don't deserve it. So unless you prove you deserve it then suck my dick, cuz im done playin around with you niggas.

For a long time I really thought everybody was so weird and fucked in the head, but I guess maybe it's just me. It's pretty sad to think nobody is ever on the same page with you. i'm really fucking tired of all of this, ugh. maybe i seem like a fucking emo kid, oh ryan youre too emotional, you get too wrapped up too quickly, but thats just bullshit ( Read more... )

I don't understand why everyone has to be so shady about everything, why not be upfront with what youre doing or who you are or what you want. I'm just tired of it. And I really wish I could trust SOMEONE.

oh ya i have the net now, it will be the death of me.

So thinks are pretty good i guess. Still dont have a job but hopefully thats going to change within the week. Calen finally paid me back (grazi). Ive been feeling really artistic lately which is also good, we really need to get the internet so Sean and I c an start creating some music. I've already been writing a lot so that won't be a problem. We ( Read more... )

So it's about 9am at the UCF library. I'm not so sure when we'll be getting the internet at the house. So far it's only been a few days since Sean, Nicole, and Josh moved in but we've already done more than i anticipated. I've been doing a lot more lately as well. I've been motivated to actually do things, i'm pretty much a different person. Now i ( Read more... )

well my internet is about to get shut off just so you know. I should have it back within a week. So until then contact me through the telefono. It really seems like i come to a lot of conclusions when im at my lowest and when i'm at my best.

Confused, Bi Polar, Caring, Artistic, Depressed, Sexually Frustrated, Mildly Intelligent, Completely misunderstood

Conclusion: Game Over

why can't we all just, get along? i wish i could make everything work for everyone but i cant so i come out feeling like shit. ugh. im just getting more and more frustrated with everything. i really just want to feel some type of closeness with somebody. it doesn't seem to be happening. and i'm still lonely.