Shoot me now

[akatsukismile]

I think I've cracked again...
Shoot me now...


[Private]
Ok.

This is super messed up.

I can't even wonder if it really happened b/c I know it did.

Wait a minute. Nothing happened! Soooo why do I feel like my head's going to explode?

I said I liked it. I did like.

But not...not b/c it was him...Just b/c it WAS.

Does that make any sense?

I liked it. I wanted it to happen. But not with him. There's...I still have those feelings for h-him. Not him, the other him...why the heck am I avoiding names in my private journal?

I want my first kiss to happen. I did not...and still do not...want it to happen with my best friend. I still have feelings for...for...for him.

They all say 'He said no. I hope the pain eases and you move on'

I don't want to move on. I really do...like (Can't say love b/c I have no idea what love really is) Aniki...I can't just give up on those feelings~ They don't go away...

and now with Usachi...sometimes its fine~ Other times...its soooo awkward!~!

I thought I said everything was okay...but its not is it?
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