..absolute nonsense
You know that restricted feeling when people tell you you're free to post anything on your blog, and yet they will judge you for posting too much?
What's worse is that people don't know how to forgive someone, no matter how sincere the apology was. And that person is the one you consider as your best friend.
You know, I understand if you want to be my best friend. But don't leave me. Don't take advantage of me. Because in the end, I will regret everything we had with each other! It feels as if I'm being used, and when they finally get what they want, they will just throw me away, like I'm a piece of trash.
If you have problems with me, then let me know! I know I have a lot of issues, especially regarding to being too emotional, but who can I blame? It's how I release my anger, my depression. It's as if crying is bad. No! Not unless you're crying over nothing. But I have a reason for everything! I understand that I'm sensitive because that's who I am! I am crying because I'm strong! Just because someone cries doesn't mean they're weak. It only means that they're human, and they are willing to face any problems.
I can't say I don't want to be used anymore because that's how life works. Used or be used. But one thing I'm sure, I will never take a person for granted. Each and everyone I meet is like a precious stone to me. I may lose you, but that doesn't mean I don't value you anymore.
..and I'm sad to know that I'm not a precious stone to her.
Maybe, it's just time for me to move on, meet other people along the way, and perhaps, find another best friend!
I may regret it for now, but it had been a part of my life. My mistakes from the past are what makes me a better person, a better individual, and nothing or no one can change me otherwise. Because at the end, I'm still just a young, 14-year old girl, on a journey. I'm yet to discover new things. I am supposed to get hurt, but I am supposed to stand up. I just can't let the past pull me down.
Every step is memorable. Be it good or bad, it still shapes us to be who we are right now.