Pride and Fear
I've been down this night because of...this.
Oppressions, injustices are common scenarios in our daily lives. Decades, scores have already passed and it seems that nothing ever changes. Why shall we keep grudges to one another? Why do we need to extract our revenge to the people we loathe? The result of these unending conflicts only make the problem to worsen.
The constant cursing has been haunting me, as if like I've had developed a trauma whenever I hear someone utters this. At a very young age, I've heard them with their verbal wars, and I don't know how it happened or why. All I ever bear in mind was that they are undergoing a problem. But as I mature, with a more intelligent thinking, I should find my way to vocalize my thoughts without making myself be involved to the conflict, though I know I'm already a part of it.
Pride is a reason he never lets his guard down, and would want to do anything and everything to show that he can conquer it. The greed of winning is before his eyes. The lack of the art of listening is what he had learned instead of the contradictory.
On the other hand, fear has been eating her. Fear of being left alone. Fear of rejection. And hence, fear of facing reality. Vulnerability is in her nature. Vulnerable to stand up for what is right. Weak of not finding strength.
They had been taken by these mirages that they don't care of what other people might think. Especially to us, to me. I have been aware of it upon the thought of building my own walls.
How shall I be free from this daily conversations without breaking down? To sound mature? But first and foremost, how shall I make them realize that pride and fear aren't the answer to everything?
On the brighter side, I finally have my author's touch back, and ideas are flooding my poor brain. But then, I have these problems:
1. A notebook where I can write my ideas. Because of the lack of notebook, I'm already using yellow pad (but the pad where I've been writing ran out, so gladly, we have a spare).
2. School. If there's school, there's homework, projects, classmates, and any other activities to mind.
3. Regarding of our school's activity this week, I'm currently stuck in role playing.
Oppressions, injustices are common scenarios in our daily lives. Decades, scores have already passed and it seems that nothing ever changes. Why shall we keep grudges to one another? Why do we need to extract our revenge to the people we loathe? The result of these unending conflicts only make the problem to worsen.
The constant cursing has been haunting me, as if like I've had developed a trauma whenever I hear someone utters this. At a very young age, I've heard them with their verbal wars, and I don't know how it happened or why. All I ever bear in mind was that they are undergoing a problem. But as I mature, with a more intelligent thinking, I should find my way to vocalize my thoughts without making myself be involved to the conflict, though I know I'm already a part of it.
Pride is a reason he never lets his guard down, and would want to do anything and everything to show that he can conquer it. The greed of winning is before his eyes. The lack of the art of listening is what he had learned instead of the contradictory.
On the other hand, fear has been eating her. Fear of being left alone. Fear of rejection. And hence, fear of facing reality. Vulnerability is in her nature. Vulnerable to stand up for what is right. Weak of not finding strength.
They had been taken by these mirages that they don't care of what other people might think. Especially to us, to me. I have been aware of it upon the thought of building my own walls.
How shall I be free from this daily conversations without breaking down? To sound mature? But first and foremost, how shall I make them realize that pride and fear aren't the answer to everything?
On the brighter side, I finally have my author's touch back, and ideas are flooding my poor brain. But then, I have these problems:
1. A notebook where I can write my ideas. Because of the lack of notebook, I'm already using yellow pad (but the pad where I've been writing ran out, so gladly, we have a spare).
2. School. If there's school, there's homework, projects, classmates, and any other activities to mind.
3. Regarding of our school's activity this week, I'm currently stuck in role playing.