eep! i just accidentally stole a book from the library...i cannot believe i would commit such sacrilege...it makes me wonder...the alarm didn't go off...hmmmmmm....

fuck luck. grrrrrrrrr to circumstance. i want MY way.

steam and naked presence. i look through eyes that see into me. and there's touch. my every fiber is open. open for reception of honest naked elemental honesty. give me bare conscious quiet and i give definately now. drink and feel. look and recieve. steam and touch. i exist.

a new year. for me ( Read more... )

for if you like...

http://www.d.umn.edu/~lars1616/

as always, always in the works

unfeeling. one time, i was inspired. i felt. and i felt regardless. i realize that i haven't felt a feeling since i smothered myself in forgetting and called it moving forward. except when i saw a shooting star and began crying. the most heartbreaking emotion is lack-thereof. wrap me up in expectation and future misguidance. remembering the past ( Read more... )

because I dont really know how to contact you...happy birthday here, nate. once, we shared our days. time transfered from one to the other quite smoothly, most likely in the shadow of the birthday baton. you've been a best friend to me; we are we, partly. thank you. and happy wishes for you.

i've found it now ( Read more... )

if anyone wonders, between 6-ish p.m tonight and 1-ish p.m. sunday, "i wonder what ever happened to that lovely lady ingrid?"...
the answer is:
she is fully enjoying herself, and phil, in montreal.
there is no further need for wonder.

this song
it reminds me that i wish
it lets me know that there is something, somewhere, sometime
something so fantastic that
it can never be found

except when you least expect, least desire, least need it

i expect way too much.