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[akuma_divine]

Is it alright if I just don't want to be female?? ANY kind of female? I mean, if I absolutely had to stay inside the female spectrum, the closest to what I want to be would be Mulan, but only as Ping. When she's in the army

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[kitefeathers]

Heh, yeah. I like in when people say stuff like that. "Well you don't act like a guy, so...."

Damnit. I guess that means that all the girly bois need to be mtf.

Regardless, it always fascinates me why people concerns themselves with things that just don't matter/effect them at all. And I'm amazed at how they can take half a second to size someone up and determine if their worthy to be male/female/herm/pluto/whatev. Without even taking their individuality into consideration. Amazing.

[darkhunterhope]

Okay, so I know your parents haven't been the best at being supportive of who you are, and who your are growing into, evolving into.

But your therapist told you no?
People at the center told you no?

Before I go off on some crazy persons rampage, do you care to explain this one to me?

-Hunter

[akuma_divine]

Heh, no, those people haven't actually told me "no" out right. Just empty ranting on my part. Please excuse the dust left from my explosion of RAEG.

But I did have a conversation with my boyfriend/FWB about my gender issues, and one of the things he said was that he doesn't get a male vibe off me. I brought it up at last night's FTMI meeting and Gabe said he doesn't get a male vibe off me either. It's a pretty hard blow to my confidence. It makes me feel like I won't ever automatically read to anyone as male.

IDK, man... I don't want to be a Manly Man of Manliness. I just want to be Not Female. I need to know that I can do that and still call myself male.