Now What?
I'm bored, I can't find my paints, and I have a chemistry presentation on Monday with a group I can't really put much trust into. To make matters worse, I'm failing that course, so I know practically nothing. However, granted that we have an easier topic to discuss and teach to the class, it should be overall, easy. With my shyness, it would slow me down a bit, but I hope to overcome that by boredom, or anger. How? I have no idea, but hopefully something would make me stop being so damn fucking shy. Fidgeting in front of a class that's a year younger than you is quite.... troublesome (especially if your the one whose failing).
So, now that that's has been vented out (and to probably no one since I never had any reviews or friends on this site other than a viewer by the name of Oku-), I plan to do something that would relieve my stress, or at least lessen it.
Ah, I just remembered. I got a call from my workplace earlier on today asking me to work at another location for the day. I refused, feeling bad that I had to decline. However, I lied when I told them I was busy. I have issues with working at another location rather than the one I work at usually.
Reasons why are:
1. I'm extremely shy (as I already stated), and I'd feel extremely uncomfortable around people I don't know.
2. I'm a huge klutz. I've been working for a year, and my fellow employees hate my guts because of this (plus I'm shy so I don't talk, which might lead them to believe that I'm either snobby, or an idiot. In most cases, I believe it's both).
3. I act differently at work. I have a total different personality, in which I'm not so fond of and neither are the employees, so I don't feel like showing it to the rest of the company.
Ah, the life of a teenager.
Yesterday during work, I had a regular come by and chatted a bit while taking his order. He smiled at me when he said "When I was around your age, I started to work too. You should enjoy it while you still can." I tried to wipe the bitterness in my smile, and mentally laughed while handing back his receipt. Enjoy it huh?
When I told my father that I decline their offer on working today, he was extremely disappointed it me. Because of our financial problems, he scolded me for not being responsible, or mature enough to take their offer in making more money. I felt like I was 10 again, being lectured on the broken pieces left on the floor to be taken care of. Really now, these days I've been named as an irresponsible young adult, whose in need to a mental and social checkup.
So what if I'm not so much of a people person? I'm not the only one who gets annoyed with idiotic complaints by customers who complains about chicken prices, in which I annoy the hell out of my friend who I complain to whenever I get the chance. So what if I'm a complete dunce when it comes to numbers? There are millions of artists out there in the world who are making a living out of their talent.
Everything just adds up, doesn't it? One problem after the other.
Well, I guess what all this comes down to, is the fact that I'm just like any other normal teen out there, complaining about the world, and trying to find their own place in it.
So, now that that's has been vented out (and to probably no one since I never had any reviews or friends on this site other than a viewer by the name of Oku-), I plan to do something that would relieve my stress, or at least lessen it.
Ah, I just remembered. I got a call from my workplace earlier on today asking me to work at another location for the day. I refused, feeling bad that I had to decline. However, I lied when I told them I was busy. I have issues with working at another location rather than the one I work at usually.
Reasons why are:
1. I'm extremely shy (as I already stated), and I'd feel extremely uncomfortable around people I don't know.
2. I'm a huge klutz. I've been working for a year, and my fellow employees hate my guts because of this (plus I'm shy so I don't talk, which might lead them to believe that I'm either snobby, or an idiot. In most cases, I believe it's both).
3. I act differently at work. I have a total different personality, in which I'm not so fond of and neither are the employees, so I don't feel like showing it to the rest of the company.
Ah, the life of a teenager.
Yesterday during work, I had a regular come by and chatted a bit while taking his order. He smiled at me when he said "When I was around your age, I started to work too. You should enjoy it while you still can." I tried to wipe the bitterness in my smile, and mentally laughed while handing back his receipt. Enjoy it huh?
When I told my father that I decline their offer on working today, he was extremely disappointed it me. Because of our financial problems, he scolded me for not being responsible, or mature enough to take their offer in making more money. I felt like I was 10 again, being lectured on the broken pieces left on the floor to be taken care of. Really now, these days I've been named as an irresponsible young adult, whose in need to a mental and social checkup.
So what if I'm not so much of a people person? I'm not the only one who gets annoyed with idiotic complaints by customers who complains about chicken prices, in which I annoy the hell out of my friend who I complain to whenever I get the chance. So what if I'm a complete dunce when it comes to numbers? There are millions of artists out there in the world who are making a living out of their talent.
Everything just adds up, doesn't it? One problem after the other.
Well, I guess what all this comes down to, is the fact that I'm just like any other normal teen out there, complaining about the world, and trying to find their own place in it.