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Was talkin' to a guy at work the other day...one I seem to be able to open up to pretty easy. Maybe cuz he comes from a similar background...
Anyway. Told him 'bout Red comin' back. An' after some roundabout questioning, he got me to admit somethin'. That I'm more pissed 'bout the way Red left Lady than that Red left me, even though he prolly was 'bout the closest thing I have to a friend.
The guy at work, he's old enough to be my old man...an' he said that kind of unselfish thinking comin' from a selfish (and yeah, I know I am) guy like me is a sign I'm growin' up. An' he said it like it's a good thing, an' like he's proud'a me for it. Even said my mom'd prolly be happy to know an' maybe I should tell her.
Yeah right.
.....Still though. Got me thinkin' 'bout other things, too....stuff I probably need to think on more than I do. I don't like it, all this thinkin'..... 's startin' to make me realize I've changed a lot more than I thought I had since comin' to this school.... But especially in the last year.
Dunno what to make of that, really. Don't wanna think about it, either.
I've been thinkin' too much. Need to cut that shit out.