I want to be this skinny...


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Yesterday I ate nothing but a 94 calorie packed of Skips. It wasn't easy, but I was so happy with myself.
Today, I ate until I felt sick, disgusting, ugly, worthless and FAT.

My problem is, once I start eating, I lose control.
I know it's easiest if I just don't eat at all.
I either eat nothing, or I eat loads.
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It has been 2 months since my last post.
It has been 2 months since I even logged on to LJ.
It has been 2 months since I decided that I had had enough.

I knew that posting on LJ was becoming an obsession. I knew that food and weight and fat and eating and not eating were dangerously becoming more important that anything else. It consumed me. I wrote ( Read more... )

I think this woman is incredibly and uniquely beautiful... here are a few of my favourite photos.
They are real works of art... and she is the masterpiece!


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I've started falling apart...

I'm not savouring life.

I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive.

Take the pieces and build them skywards...

I'd forgotten how good it could be to feel alive... <3

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"Does it ever get easier to live like this?"

Ohhh... I have the hardest time resisting you...

(But) We can't go on like this... (8)

I try to give you everything

And if I fail, well then I fail...

But at least I gave you something. (8)

Starting a fast tomorrow... at least 3 days...

Let's just hope I don't fail.

* 103 lbs by Saturday 21st! ^_^ *

I thought a little weight loss ticker would be fun... ^_^

This one's pretty and has BMI... but refuses to go below 100lbs as a target weight?! The other one does though... 98lbs, here I come! ^_^


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What nourishes me, destroys me.

I have had a few good days, and a few bad moments.
I have had ups and downs.
I have been at a point of total despair, and I have been at a point of failing to care.
I have been determined, and I have been defeated.
NOW, I have made a decision.
I have just created a new community called "2weekliquidfast"... ^_^
<3