Darkendale Event and the future......
In some ways this was a cursed event for us, and that perhaps reflects on why I didn’t really enjoy myself. The plan of take 5 people in 3 cars became 4 in 1 as crisis after catastrophe hit Aylesbury.
It had been an event that I’d been looking forward to back in the summer as Sid, Meg, Karnak and Polly had made plans for fun, but as it turned out only Karnak and Sid made it to the ball, and plans had gone by the wayside as had some serious amounts of work.
Not in the best frame of mind I found myself going through the motions a lot, Karnak’s banter felt hollow and very few moments of genuine joy were behind that forced banter.
“Stroppy McStropface” and “Watcher names” were the obvious two.
I also found myself feeling claustrophobic in the main hall as the candlelit lighting left stuff to be desired as I can’t read in my lenses in low light due to astigmatism and my paranoia went into overdrive in the formal dinner as I was seriously out of my comfort zone due to a catalogue of minor problems all rearing up one after the other meant I was out in the antechamber being fed behind a curtain.
Whilst I won a duelling contest, it was at the cost of Marianne in the final as we met and sadly I actually hurt her.
Turns out I almost won another prize and I’m really glad I’d left by then as I’m really not sure what I’d have done at the booing.
So whilst the event obviously had a lot of thought put into it and I’m sure other people enjoyed it, its left me wondering what to do.
As Toni observed on Saturday night when we talked about the autopilot banter “My heart isn’t in it anymore”, and as I said to Marianne on Sunday, “Polly and Karnak were it seems papering over cracks that were there all along”
At the moment I have spent 6 years playing Karnak and that’s a lot of investment in a character, but right now I don’t have a lot of fun playing him.
I’m on my 3rd year as High Ritualist and while rituals are fun the baggage isn’t and its an impossible weight that burns people out.
I’m on my 3rd stint in the military as Karnak and my 7th as any character, so yeah I can do that and really find no excitement in generalship apart from the odd tough battle.
I’ve been playing in the LT for 16 years now and thus looking for a new challenge is not that easy, though I’ve not played the guild game and am only now dabbling in the ritual side.
So what too do, some new stuff could happen for Karnak this year and all could be well, or maybe the baggage I’ve collected will continue to weigh him down, or somewhere in between, or I could look top move on but that has its own issues.
I don’t know but there is a lot of thinking to be put in and put in quick so that I don’t end up wasting other peoples opportunities with Paladin and Ritual plans.
I also need to thank a few people for the help they showed me over the weekend.
Dessie and Dan for noticing on Saturday that I was broken, and Barry for feeding me in my corner.
Marianne and Toni for their help and support throughout the weekend.
Chris Cunliffe, Fergal and Sue Law for keeping me sane (ish) IC, Particularly Chris as he was responsible for both those highlights in banter above, though unsurprisingly Nethanial gets away with the blame ;)
And Dave Leach and Sue Law for being there for me, neither is normally one of my go to friends but both surprised me with their thoughtful consideration and care.
It had been an event that I’d been looking forward to back in the summer as Sid, Meg, Karnak and Polly had made plans for fun, but as it turned out only Karnak and Sid made it to the ball, and plans had gone by the wayside as had some serious amounts of work.
Not in the best frame of mind I found myself going through the motions a lot, Karnak’s banter felt hollow and very few moments of genuine joy were behind that forced banter.
“Stroppy McStropface” and “Watcher names” were the obvious two.
I also found myself feeling claustrophobic in the main hall as the candlelit lighting left stuff to be desired as I can’t read in my lenses in low light due to astigmatism and my paranoia went into overdrive in the formal dinner as I was seriously out of my comfort zone due to a catalogue of minor problems all rearing up one after the other meant I was out in the antechamber being fed behind a curtain.
Whilst I won a duelling contest, it was at the cost of Marianne in the final as we met and sadly I actually hurt her.
Turns out I almost won another prize and I’m really glad I’d left by then as I’m really not sure what I’d have done at the booing.
So whilst the event obviously had a lot of thought put into it and I’m sure other people enjoyed it, its left me wondering what to do.
As Toni observed on Saturday night when we talked about the autopilot banter “My heart isn’t in it anymore”, and as I said to Marianne on Sunday, “Polly and Karnak were it seems papering over cracks that were there all along”
At the moment I have spent 6 years playing Karnak and that’s a lot of investment in a character, but right now I don’t have a lot of fun playing him.
I’m on my 3rd year as High Ritualist and while rituals are fun the baggage isn’t and its an impossible weight that burns people out.
I’m on my 3rd stint in the military as Karnak and my 7th as any character, so yeah I can do that and really find no excitement in generalship apart from the odd tough battle.
I’ve been playing in the LT for 16 years now and thus looking for a new challenge is not that easy, though I’ve not played the guild game and am only now dabbling in the ritual side.
So what too do, some new stuff could happen for Karnak this year and all could be well, or maybe the baggage I’ve collected will continue to weigh him down, or somewhere in between, or I could look top move on but that has its own issues.
I don’t know but there is a lot of thinking to be put in and put in quick so that I don’t end up wasting other peoples opportunities with Paladin and Ritual plans.
I also need to thank a few people for the help they showed me over the weekend.
Dessie and Dan for noticing on Saturday that I was broken, and Barry for feeding me in my corner.
Marianne and Toni for their help and support throughout the weekend.
Chris Cunliffe, Fergal and Sue Law for keeping me sane (ish) IC, Particularly Chris as he was responsible for both those highlights in banter above, though unsurprisingly Nethanial gets away with the blame ;)
And Dave Leach and Sue Law for being there for me, neither is normally one of my go to friends but both surprised me with their thoughtful consideration and care.