NZ blues

[alanica]

i love coming to this internet cafe because they play music I love, music for people who love music, music I could talk about to those back home who love music.Today is Whatangi Day, aka New Zealand day. I don't feel festive at all. In fact, all I can think about it running as fast as I can over the pacific Ocean back to somewhere that will allow

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[beehivegumby]

i'm sorry, becca. i would hate for you to have to leave, but you know what's best for you.

if you wanna come crash on my couch you can. you are always welcome.

[alanica]

oh avan! I would love to crash on your couch. Sometimes everythign just snowballs and I don't know what to do but run. However, i went back and I realized (after talking to my mom as well) just how detremental it would be to our realationship. God, I must sound like a nut case, but I love him and we'll get through it. Plus, who else would say "i love you. You think about it and then we'll talk about it" after telling him that I was writing Kellie an email. Sometimes I think I am so foolish for thinking how I do. Plus, I talked to my mom and she gave me a project. Finally!!! Thanks Avan, you are so sweet. Sometime I may take you up on the offer on my travels : )

[alanica]

so, in conclusion, I really don't know what is best for me. I just know that writing about it and then talking about it helps me arrive at an answer near that.