i really do not enjoy waiting. Here are all the things I am waiting for ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning with my the inside of my face swollen and constricted by the skin and bones that make up my head. i put on some soft music and listened to a few songs hoping that the compressions of sweetness coming into my ears would ease the pain a bit. It really didn't, but at least I felt good enough to get off the futon. In a failed ( Read more... )

my stomach has almost hit the rock bottom of hungry, and pretty soon I won't be hungry at all anymore. I'm finally catching up a bit on this world wide web, as I wait for the ocean in my part of the world to come a bit higher onto the land. Then we're off in a little boat to a sand bar somewhere with beer and lots of people getting ready to head ( Read more... )

i've been sitting in front of a computer for the last 4 hours repeatively pressing the delete and backspace button. My eyes hurt from being open too much and not closed enough. i need to work so that my money flow can grow and grow, but man oh man do I need to get some rest soon.

i'm sitting in my brother's old room, the one painted blue on three sides and a mural of tropical fish on the fourth that I painted with a friend when I was in the 5th grade. Now it is covered in cheap wannabe aok computer furniture, and this is the last time i will sit at this computer desk for quite some time. This visit home was so much more ( Read more... )

My "real job" ends tomorrow, and I go back to truely being 22 and newly out of school. I am so happy. check out mackinzie-childs.com to see why i couldn't continue.

So yesterday afternoon I botched things up big time. After becoming super frustrated and stressed, I told my boss that I didn't particularly like the stuff in this store. I told her that I can understand why people like it, but that I can't get excited over it. I wanted to continue to talk about it, but by the time I returned from grabbing ( Read more... )

ian sat on a round tuft of striped silk in the light of the open doorway facing Caddy's Alley, and told me he enjoyed the forwarded email from a Lizzie, newly planted in Costa Rica. I then told him that this is the last retail job I will ever work. It made me realize that to make more I have to acquire more. Clothes, shoes, dinners, little bits of ( Read more... )

There is this aching that is running up and down my back and I can only envision how soothing and amazing a bath tub full of the hottest water my skin can tolerate without peeling back would feel. I want to feel the steam completely engulf me, fill my lungs, my face, my eye sockets and forget that it is still winter outside, and that I have two ( Read more... )

about a minute and a half ago i walked by renee. she had her face in a fed-ex box saying "i love the smell of shoe boxes." i don't even know what shoe boxes smell like. i've never felt sad over the fact that i can't smell well, but i am right now.