still walking around half-asleep. the heat. the heat. is in my face. the other day. i was walking to jon's to give him his movie. he wasn't there. and i started on my way back. but then sat down shortly after i started. on a stoop. and i found the top of a Harley Davidson box and i drew on it. with a pencil. i drew myself sitting on a stoop ( Read more... )

I AM 64% ASSHOLE/BITCH!
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yes . thursday. night. just got back . from fresnn. i was told my journal sounds sad most of the time. and i i agree i guess. yes.. depressed. frustated. lazy. whatever. lonely. not surprised. bored. tired. fatigued. schizophrenic. critical. slow. dumb. numb. apathetic. there is the state i'm usually in. but you know. it's just the same as an ( Read more... )

fucking weather is killing me during the day. but the nights. are so fresh i just want to have the script to grease ( Read more... )

so last night i had a dream. but before i get into that.... the other day i met this black dude . like older guy about thirty. early thirty.and he was like telling me about this organization he was in like a minority arts thing and stuff. and then i started talking about wanting a job and he said. that he would help me you know. show me places ( Read more... )

i remember i used to like spinning around in an old green armchair. until i cut my knee on it somehow. and i remember Bill Carr from thursday ( Read more... )

okkay. made it back to madera in one piece. drained. the bus ride back. oh so irritating. the days . i kept a secret from them for a while. can't leave me alone. i'll do it hard narcotic style. I came uppon sara the surreal. way. of course. i'm a natural. I got off the bus. and got onto another. dropped me off on heller and haughlin. walked a ( Read more... )

oh oh my. oh everything is terrible. i am so depressed. holy shit. i am dying. no really. now. where has the time gone. hmm? school is going to be over in like two months and isn't it strange to say 1994 was ten years ago? no not really. but hey. dawn of the dead was dumb. but you know, what can you expect from a horror movie. ey.? the zombie ( Read more... )

last night i had a dream. so long. such a movie. i'm going to cut it short. because. it so lengthy. so. let's see. i was in my old house. amanda, you remember. my house. in the living. room. a bunch of these dorky girls come over. like dorky nerdy lame funny looking girls. and they all sit down. and one of them has like a solex sticker. ( Read more... )

me myself. i am full of me. talk to myself constantly. funny jokes. making fun. you know the works. me, number one. now. of course i am a generous person. i love to give. give everything. i can. all of it. ALL of it. why because i am am just so full of myself. that i have to give some away. or i'll explode. and scatter me all over myself. that's ( Read more... )