New York.


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day time love making

i have a new hair cut. its cutie.

i think it makes look like i'm 12 years old. thats nothing new.

9 days until i'm in new york with ryan!!!!

i feel like i'm 7 again counting down for christmas.

its better than christmas. no question about it.

a visit with ryan is BETTER THAN CHRISTMAS!!!

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give me a knife and i'll end it like elliott smith.

one thing after another. i'm never going to be well.

i've lost 5lbs.

i've got over 30hours this week at banana.

i bought dustly gold ballet slippers on friday.

i miss jessy and jayme. my heart is broken. and i no longer hold the pieces.

i'm on a diet.

my diet. consists of. celery. cottage cheese. and diet rootbeer.

i eat twice a day. you will envy me.

i'm taking up smoking again. ha. fuck you.

my goal weight is currently: 105.

i'll be in ny in 15 days! yes!

don't fucking set a goal for yourself if you're just going to give up 4 days later.

how fucking lame.

you are a disappointment.

stop fucking thinking about things. and just do them.

things have really changed.

how embarrassing. how can you fucking go out in public like that.

All the Pretty girls Go to The city.

and i ask you not to leave.

so you stayed.

we fell in love. (not like we weren't in love before but this time we knew it was the real thing.)

thats all we needed

and thats all i wanted.

i want to find a love that is true...

touch me every chance that you can.

fall asleep with your arms wrapped around me

wake me in the morning with a kiss on the nose.

bastards. stole my fucking innocence.


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i'd sell my shoes....

to be alone with you....

i am living  from thought to thought of you.

and conversation to conversation with you.

the one i fancy is a son of the city.

so things are lonely here in the midwest.

when i arrive. i don't think i'll want to leave you.

hold tight it's just beginning....

work has taken over my life.

i'm working shy of full time (by an hour.... those creeps).

i have a new friend. his name is ryan. i think of him often.

problem number one with ryan. he lives in brooklyn.

and well there is no problem number two. so problem one breaks my heart.

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