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Hi,
I feel a bit sleepy, and these are the moments in which I write in english better. Or so I think.
Well, it’s almost a month now since I came back from Venice to Sanremo for good. The are no more stages planned and so on. I mean, I WILL go to Venice at least once before Christmas for sure, but I haven’t planned the journey yet.
In these days, the three language schools to which I proposed my project for a Japanese language course (basic level) are publishing advertisings about it. I’ve spent the last week or so walking in various towns to distribute pamphlets in shops and schools. I’m very tired (with feet like “pagnotte”) because this kind of job is exhausting, very relaxed because this kind of job is easy and plain, and very guilty and conflicted because I have openly publicized only one of the three schools and this is not fair. I don’t feel at ease with the “free-lance” ethics yet, especially when my preferences are for a specific director, not the one who has required me to give out the 120 pamphlets I finished freeing myself off today, and not the one who offers the lowest price.
The positive part is I’ve found A LOT of people interested and enthusiastic about learning Japanese. The negative is I’m not sure how many of these people will actually pay.
In the free time, I did a bit of volunteer’s work in collecting funds for the Center that helps the women victims of domestic violence. This Center has organized a free course (starting this Friday) to make people reflect and discuss about the dynamics of communication and interaction in a couple: it begins with the “false-friends” of Love and ends with divorce and domestic violence. Actually, this course is not of the “Love-bashing” or “couple-bashing” or “marriage-bashing” type: the purpose is to open a space for free discussion and critical reflection.
The volunteers (all women “of course”) asked me to contribute with two discussions leaping out from my degree’s dissertation: the first one will be about the communication in a Japanese married couple and the other will be about the link between male alcoholism and the Japanese family ethic about the roles of the spouses. The funniest thing is that all of the volunteers wants to help me build confidence for my discussions. The first days I’ve worked with them I was a bit shy and not at ease because I didn’t know how to behave with people, and I was very tense. So all of them now have this impression that I’m very shy and tense ever and don’t trust me to speak well during the conference. I can’t blame them for thinking this, and they are very kind: I tried to reassure them that I’m able to speak loudly and I will, but I’m not very convincing I think. In the meantime, one volunteer, a classical opera singer with new age breathing background, is teaching me how to breathe and sing (I’m very happy because taking singing lessons was on my list of “to-do-things in Sanremo”), and another is trying to open my fifth chakra with her spiritual energy; and the psychologist has proposed to talk once or twice to make me feel relaxed.
Well, apart from the feeling of being under attack (LOL) I don’t have a lot to do at the moment and I find interesting listening to them all, so I don’t refuse anything (although I keep my personal opinions a bit detached).
One of my friend here is a bellydance’s teacher, and another is enthusiastic about yoga, biologic food and ajurvedic knowledge.
I AM under attack, after all XP.
I mean, it’s not that I consider all of this bullshit, because I don’t. I choose to study what I choose to study at university for a reason. The thing that scares me is the “THIS is the TRUE solution for all your problems” slogan and the mystic fanatics’s thinking. And the egocentrism “I want a true, armonic, original and safe life FOR MYSELF”.
An example: I don’t care about biological and 100% safe food, I care more about the non-exploitative and 100% equal economic relationship between the brand and the workers. Apple with worms disgusted me, so a bit of insecticide it’s welcome. A BIT, not a waterfall, and no other poisons or hormones edulcorant and the like, of course. And I have some brands and some foods that I avoid because I don’t think them safe; and even if I don’t have the discipline to preserve, I think that the vegetarian choice is right.
But pretending to live only with “pure” and “natural” and “biological” food is an exaggeration. An exaggeration that, first, depends too much on money, and second, is based more on the “not in my neighborhood” way of thinking that on “we will killing ourselves and al the planet if we’ll continue like this” way of thinking.
And I think that accomplishing the second problem (non-exploitative and 100% equal economic relationship) will result in accomplishing the first problem (biological and 100% safe food).
This “filippica” was jumping inside my head for a couple of days, I had to let her out, sorry lj-friends XP.
..well, me too, have "the TRUE solution for all your problems" after all. Can't avoid this XP.
I don't think that the people around me have the fanatic's approach, but I can't stop being weary about it, or about my tendency to agree unconsciously at everything it's said to me, for courtesy if not for lacking courage to say my disagremeent.
...OMG, I’ve actually agreed to take a bellydance lesson next week… I WILL die of embarrassment, but I don’t care at the moment XP. I have to admit that I AM curious, really... and she was smailing so much when I said that I would have come, that that was quite worth it.
The most important thing ever, is that NEXT MONDAY I WILL START TO WORK! I will help children of junior high school do their homeworks, and I hope that "I will be firm, but kind" citing Maria's song in the musical The Sound of Music XP.
I feel a bit sleepy, and these are the moments in which I write in english better. Or so I think.
Well, it’s almost a month now since I came back from Venice to Sanremo for good. The are no more stages planned and so on. I mean, I WILL go to Venice at least once before Christmas for sure, but I haven’t planned the journey yet.
In these days, the three language schools to which I proposed my project for a Japanese language course (basic level) are publishing advertisings about it. I’ve spent the last week or so walking in various towns to distribute pamphlets in shops and schools. I’m very tired (with feet like “pagnotte”) because this kind of job is exhausting, very relaxed because this kind of job is easy and plain, and very guilty and conflicted because I have openly publicized only one of the three schools and this is not fair. I don’t feel at ease with the “free-lance” ethics yet, especially when my preferences are for a specific director, not the one who has required me to give out the 120 pamphlets I finished freeing myself off today, and not the one who offers the lowest price.
The positive part is I’ve found A LOT of people interested and enthusiastic about learning Japanese. The negative is I’m not sure how many of these people will actually pay.
In the free time, I did a bit of volunteer’s work in collecting funds for the Center that helps the women victims of domestic violence. This Center has organized a free course (starting this Friday) to make people reflect and discuss about the dynamics of communication and interaction in a couple: it begins with the “false-friends” of Love and ends with divorce and domestic violence. Actually, this course is not of the “Love-bashing” or “couple-bashing” or “marriage-bashing” type: the purpose is to open a space for free discussion and critical reflection.
The volunteers (all women “of course”) asked me to contribute with two discussions leaping out from my degree’s dissertation: the first one will be about the communication in a Japanese married couple and the other will be about the link between male alcoholism and the Japanese family ethic about the roles of the spouses. The funniest thing is that all of the volunteers wants to help me build confidence for my discussions. The first days I’ve worked with them I was a bit shy and not at ease because I didn’t know how to behave with people, and I was very tense. So all of them now have this impression that I’m very shy and tense ever and don’t trust me to speak well during the conference. I can’t blame them for thinking this, and they are very kind: I tried to reassure them that I’m able to speak loudly and I will, but I’m not very convincing I think. In the meantime, one volunteer, a classical opera singer with new age breathing background, is teaching me how to breathe and sing (I’m very happy because taking singing lessons was on my list of “to-do-things in Sanremo”), and another is trying to open my fifth chakra with her spiritual energy; and the psychologist has proposed to talk once or twice to make me feel relaxed.
Well, apart from the feeling of being under attack (LOL) I don’t have a lot to do at the moment and I find interesting listening to them all, so I don’t refuse anything (although I keep my personal opinions a bit detached).
One of my friend here is a bellydance’s teacher, and another is enthusiastic about yoga, biologic food and ajurvedic knowledge.
I AM under attack, after all XP.
I mean, it’s not that I consider all of this bullshit, because I don’t. I choose to study what I choose to study at university for a reason. The thing that scares me is the “THIS is the TRUE solution for all your problems” slogan and the mystic fanatics’s thinking. And the egocentrism “I want a true, armonic, original and safe life FOR MYSELF”.
An example: I don’t care about biological and 100% safe food, I care more about the non-exploitative and 100% equal economic relationship between the brand and the workers. Apple with worms disgusted me, so a bit of insecticide it’s welcome. A BIT, not a waterfall, and no other poisons or hormones edulcorant and the like, of course. And I have some brands and some foods that I avoid because I don’t think them safe; and even if I don’t have the discipline to preserve, I think that the vegetarian choice is right.
But pretending to live only with “pure” and “natural” and “biological” food is an exaggeration. An exaggeration that, first, depends too much on money, and second, is based more on the “not in my neighborhood” way of thinking that on “we will killing ourselves and al the planet if we’ll continue like this” way of thinking.
And I think that accomplishing the second problem (non-exploitative and 100% equal economic relationship) will result in accomplishing the first problem (biological and 100% safe food).
This “filippica” was jumping inside my head for a couple of days, I had to let her out, sorry lj-friends XP.
..well, me too, have "the TRUE solution for all your problems" after all. Can't avoid this XP.
I don't think that the people around me have the fanatic's approach, but I can't stop being weary about it, or about my tendency to agree unconsciously at everything it's said to me, for courtesy if not for lacking courage to say my disagremeent.
...OMG, I’ve actually agreed to take a bellydance lesson next week… I WILL die of embarrassment, but I don’t care at the moment XP. I have to admit that I AM curious, really... and she was smailing so much when I said that I would have come, that that was quite worth it.
The most important thing ever, is that NEXT MONDAY I WILL START TO WORK! I will help children of junior high school do their homeworks, and I hope that "I will be firm, but kind" citing Maria's song in the musical The Sound of Music XP.