The (post-)Ritalin Diaries - Week 8 (I think), Day 4
I gotta do better at taking care of myself. Yesterday I didn't eat a whole lot and also didn't get a lot of sleep. Today I am absolutely falling apart. My head is full of cotton and my body is just feeling mad unpleasant. Naturally, it's just because at the moment it's another little stab of big/important tests, which tend to be the times when I don't brain so good.
But man, I'm really noticing the difference. My whole sense of time really does feel so very different. Like, on the Ritalin, I would still focus on a thing for hours and hours but I was more aware that I was doing it for hours.
Now I'm just finding myself feeling bizarrely adrift in time and I don't care for it. Hours pass in a flash of nothing and it's frustrating.
Just gonna keep working on getting my body going for it. That means mechanical needs need to be better-tended-to. Food, water, exercise, sleep.
I don't like how hard it is. But it's what needs to be done.
But man, I'm really noticing the difference. My whole sense of time really does feel so very different. Like, on the Ritalin, I would still focus on a thing for hours and hours but I was more aware that I was doing it for hours.
Now I'm just finding myself feeling bizarrely adrift in time and I don't care for it. Hours pass in a flash of nothing and it's frustrating.
Just gonna keep working on getting my body going for it. That means mechanical needs need to be better-tended-to. Food, water, exercise, sleep.
I don't like how hard it is. But it's what needs to be done.