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[aletheis]

i feel like i'm ruining my life & my future.  i can't work, i can't think, & all i want to do is read old entries from various journals. 
Once, i used to write & once i used to produce.  Now i am old & pathetic & worthless.  Sometime i might expand upon why, but suffice it to say that it involves an inability to find motivation coupled with a

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[aletheis]

i went to the university of chicago for my undergraduate degree (fall 2000-winter 2003). If i only lived in Chicago again! i love that city. i live in a worthless town at the moment. Although my advisor is probably the best in the country (really), the atmosphere is not conducive to writing, creatively or otherwise. And the department is full of drama at the moment, which first made me cavalier & bold, but now i see that there's little i can do to fix things.

sorry to be so mopey - i just used to write so much here & when i read my entries from 2002-2004, i yearn for the time and inspiration that i had just so recently...

[cbanek]

To jump out of the voices of the crowd who are saying "I understand!", I just want to say that, well... I understand.

The last semester at college was hell for me. I hated that Chambana town and the school for making me jump through so many unnecessary hoops. But boy getting out into the world is a different experience.

And now after a few years out of school, I hit the "oh god, I'm 25 now, I never expected to live past this", literally waiting for a bus to hit me the day before my birthday, as if it would just be over. As morbid as that sounds, it was a great rebirth for me as well, and finding the time to work on what you truly care about will reengerize you.

I know you'll be just fine. :)

[ex_lines]

You're moving to the UK? Sorry if I missed it (or if it's none of my business!), but why? & Are you looking forward to it for more than the reason you stated?

My friend jaq just moved to Massachusetts from the UK. I'm sure you have it covered, but if you need any advice...

[baron_vn_blubba]

You must have known before you wrote
that writing souls are never smote.
We write and rant on many things
and every bit, some pleasure brings.

Do not despair, though I am late,
I'm here for you and I will wait.