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[alexandramanley]

So I've done it. It's been ready since May, but I haven't the strength to actually do it. I bought a house for Nikolai, Felix and myself in Copenhagen, near Hellerup, but I'm not sure when I'll be moving in. Maybe in the next year or so. Joachim and I are officially seperated and our news is all over. Everybody knows, and somehow, I feel more free

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[martina_mcbride]

I have absolutely no idea what you're going through. Last time I remember cheating I was 18 and and I nailed him between the eyes with his class ring. I either have good aim or bad aim. Please get on AIM soon.

[alexandramanley]

God I love you! AIM is a must. I will as soon as I find the time, love!

[prince_joachim]

Can't live with me, can't live without me? Only, as it seems, you can...

I feel it just the same, Alex. Perhaps more so, because it was all my fault. Everything. And I'm still in love with you. I know I was stupid, I know it was wrong of me, but at the end of the day - it's still you. It will always be you.

I hope you enjoy your new residence. Tuck Felix and Nikolai in extra tightly for me.

[alexandramanley]

Darling it's that first stage of culture shock, or in this case, the change of something that has become so routine.

Don't blame it all on yourself, Joachim. It was partly my fault too. You know I love you, and I always will. I'm touched that you still feel that way, I wish we could turn back time and work things out when problems first began to arise, however we both know that this is official and over.

I will. And you know you are welcome at anytime. The boys ask for you every night. It's hard to get used to, not seeing both your parents when you're so used to it, I suppose. We just need time. All of us.

[prince_joachim]

It's hard not to blame it on myself when everyone seems to take it for granted that I'm a scoundrel who is 100% at fault. Sometimes I don't even know what the truth is.

Are you saying, then, that there is no hope for the future? That we will remain cordial friends, our meetings doused in the awkwardness of knowing that we once shared a bed, a life - everything? I look forward to it.

As long as Nikolai and Felix know that I still love them, it's alright. It's painful not to be able to see them everyday, and I don't think that pain will ever go away.

[alexandramanley]

Ah, well the truth is relative now. What's done cannot be undone.

I'm saying that reconciliation may not be possible, at least, that is my view at this point. You need to understand that your actions hurt me, and your family. We will remain friends, of course, that goes without saying. That stage of my life, living together with you, is perhaps, shall we say, over.

They can never forget it. You're a wonderful father, and they love you. Joachim, anytime you want to see the boys, you are welcome to come over. Just give me a ring and it's all set.