a short one-shot
I'm sick.
And frankly? I'm SICK of BEING SICK >_<
Anyways, my dear lovely red-had from U+K had her bday last week.
ANd I promised I'd write a one-shot for her adorable self.
Here it is dear, enjoy.
Choose whatever pairing you like into it :)
You can't see me.
No mattter what I do, you just seem so blind.
Your eyes bore into mine, yet they don't see.
I tap my fingers on the ice-cold window as I let my mind drift into a world where everything goes the way I want it to go.
Where I can old you.
Where everything is picture perfect, where I would capture your silent tears with my warm lips.
Where I would be the one that holds you heart and protects it from the harshness of the world.
Strange isn't it?
That I belive you are the one who needs to be proected, to be sheltered.
Despite the cold facede you show to the world.
Despite the air of arrogance that is there around you.
Maybe because once...
Once you've let everything break.
You still don't know that I was there.
A witness to your dispair and loneliness.
I saw a person in you I never thought to see.
I always took you for someone better..stronger, more untouched.
But you bleed the same way I do.
You scream the same way...
* * *
Today you looked at me differently.
Your eyes not as clouded as they always are.
It scared me.
To see them focused for the very first time.
Ripping my illusions off of me.
* * *
I'm cold and alone now.
Watching the rain drops splash onto the sidewalks outside.
Shakng like a tormented leaf in the harsh winds.
The splatter of rain seems to have increased, the world grotesquely deformed throught the watery surface.
A torrent of grey that shelters me from everything.
I still can see your eyes.
They seem to haunt me all the time.
With one look you made everything fall apart.
Every single wall and every single shield.
You made my soul cringe and shutter.
And you don't have a clue about it.
* * *
Days pass.
Grey days of a soaked Autumn turn into cold nights.
Long hours filled with damp air never changing.
Nothing does.
We continue to be the way we are.
You watch me with unfocused eyes, those ambery depths a blur only.
While every fiber in my body screams out, louder and louder each single time.
Maybe I did change at least.
Maybe I am a little more pale, a little more skinny, a little more quiet.
Maybe I am only tired...
Of everything.
Of this gray haze that marks my days.
Of the coldness that creeps upon me everytime I awake.
Pack my things as I always do.
Let my thoughts flow away, drift without me even realizing that.
I don't need to think to clean up my own mess...
You touch my shoulder lightly and I raise my head.
I love your smile at times like these.
When you know you're free off work.
"I'm going, don't worry" maybe I force my smiles these days.
Then you only shake your head, dyed tufts of hair dancing around your face.
Your fingers touch my lips.
"I dreamt about you" you only say and give me another smile.
And turn around and leave.
I fell and I fell hard.
But I'll continue waiting now.
With patience and a new hope.
Maybe you will finally pick me up.
god knows how to treat this thing.
And frankly? I'm SICK of BEING SICK >_<
Anyways, my dear lovely red-had from U+K had her bday last week.
ANd I promised I'd write a one-shot for her adorable self.
Here it is dear, enjoy.
Choose whatever pairing you like into it :)
You can't see me.
No mattter what I do, you just seem so blind.
Your eyes bore into mine, yet they don't see.
I tap my fingers on the ice-cold window as I let my mind drift into a world where everything goes the way I want it to go.
Where I can old you.
Where everything is picture perfect, where I would capture your silent tears with my warm lips.
Where I would be the one that holds you heart and protects it from the harshness of the world.
Strange isn't it?
That I belive you are the one who needs to be proected, to be sheltered.
Despite the cold facede you show to the world.
Despite the air of arrogance that is there around you.
Maybe because once...
Once you've let everything break.
You still don't know that I was there.
A witness to your dispair and loneliness.
I saw a person in you I never thought to see.
I always took you for someone better..stronger, more untouched.
But you bleed the same way I do.
You scream the same way...
* * *
Today you looked at me differently.
Your eyes not as clouded as they always are.
It scared me.
To see them focused for the very first time.
Ripping my illusions off of me.
* * *
I'm cold and alone now.
Watching the rain drops splash onto the sidewalks outside.
Shakng like a tormented leaf in the harsh winds.
The splatter of rain seems to have increased, the world grotesquely deformed throught the watery surface.
A torrent of grey that shelters me from everything.
I still can see your eyes.
They seem to haunt me all the time.
With one look you made everything fall apart.
Every single wall and every single shield.
You made my soul cringe and shutter.
And you don't have a clue about it.
* * *
Days pass.
Grey days of a soaked Autumn turn into cold nights.
Long hours filled with damp air never changing.
Nothing does.
We continue to be the way we are.
You watch me with unfocused eyes, those ambery depths a blur only.
While every fiber in my body screams out, louder and louder each single time.
Maybe I did change at least.
Maybe I am a little more pale, a little more skinny, a little more quiet.
Maybe I am only tired...
Of everything.
Of this gray haze that marks my days.
Of the coldness that creeps upon me everytime I awake.
Pack my things as I always do.
Let my thoughts flow away, drift without me even realizing that.
I don't need to think to clean up my own mess...
You touch my shoulder lightly and I raise my head.
I love your smile at times like these.
When you know you're free off work.
"I'm going, don't worry" maybe I force my smiles these days.
Then you only shake your head, dyed tufts of hair dancing around your face.
Your fingers touch my lips.
"I dreamt about you" you only say and give me another smile.
And turn around and leave.
I fell and I fell hard.
But I'll continue waiting now.
With patience and a new hope.
Maybe you will finally pick me up.
god knows how to treat this thing.