i'm at the stage where i very much dislike couples, but hey, little to nothing i can do! i think i'm gonna put out a bit more. jamie and i are still friends with benefits. i reckon it's something that should've happened a long time ago. we were starting to hate each other as boyfriend and girlfriend and we were treating each other like platonic ( Read more... )

beer beer beer beer beer beer

BEER!

i want beeeeeeeer!

jamie and i are no longer. i don't want to go into it now. it was crazy and fucked up, and blergh ( Read more... )

oh god oh god i am such a fucking idiot.

kill me now.

due to popular demand of about 1 person, i will endeavour to post photos. eventually. as soon as i become photo happy, you can all feel free to check them out. and jamie wants to steal all the photos i have on the net just because he's too lazy to get me to put them on his computer straight from my camera.

fuck, my student hasn't arrived yet...

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=aliasjemima

har har har my nohari window.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=aliasjemima

and my johari window.

contribute, mother fuckers.

i feel like crying. i don't want to be alive. some of this shit hurts a lot. i'm really scared of myself. i've been desperate and uncontrollable. today, i went for a knife scav hunt. i couldn't find any, and i haven't stopped feeling like shit since. i really feel the need to hang myself or something. i feel so shitty. maybe slashing my wrists in ( Read more... )

http://kevan.org/johari?name=aliasjemima my johari window ( Read more... )

last night jamie and i were lying on top of his bed having a rant at how shit bits of our relationship were in time for valentines day & i had this massive sudden headache but it died after a bit. a while later, i had this stomach cramp and took the biggest shit ever, but then my head started pounding again. i kept feeling faint and suddenly cold. ( Read more... )

regretting not moving out and insanely jealous of will ( Read more... )