ok you people, you want me to call you when i get depressed and suicidal, and i don't even have your mobile numbers. WHAT HAS THIS WORLD COME TO?!?!?!

flick, amy, you wanna meet up/call to talk and i don't even have your numbers. email them to me please.

i have to find a way of numbing this pain. i'm constantly having this urge to throw myself on the train tracks because i hate my life so much. i've felt like this almost constantly for the past week or two. well, that's a lie - i've wanted to kill myself for more than half my life. that sucks. i hate it all.

edu faculty are out to get me. i think they're gonna kick me out if i don't have a legit reason for fucking up 2 of my units. makes me kinda wanna jump off a bridge but no, that won't achieve anything - and they kinda wanna see me to bitch to me about my shoddy performance before they let suicide get in the way.

i can't stand it any more. eating is now something disgusting and feral and i can't bring myself to eat. i had one rice paper roll for dinner and that was more than enough for me, but my tummy wanted more... if you get me. but i can't do it. i'm fat ( Read more... )

i honestly thought i could handle pain hands down.

i got a tattoo saying "all things shall pass" on my lower back. that was no problem. until igot my nose pierced and that was fucking painful. i think i've had enough fun for now.

quit work now. jobless. looking for work ><" faaaaaack

wants to slam head against table. only reason why i'm not offing myself yet is because i'll throw australia's suicide rate all out of whack. they might wanna keep their perfect record of one suicide a day. honestly, do young aussies actually call each other up and off themselves one after the other? cos if they do, why hasn't anyone called me ( Read more... )

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being upset. want to slash my arms open with the letter opening tool next to me. i hate life. i hate it i hate it i hate it.

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