whats in my head...a bunch of crap and a dancing monkey

[aliboc]

this will sound stupid, as im pretty sure all of u reading this have ur licences by now... but im obsessed with driving. i keep having dreams about not driving properly, crashing, killing people, permanently scarring people. i dont have my damn licence yet, i wouldnt drive for months and months through fear, then i'd drive a little, then the

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[loni_lovesalot]

ooh dear

[safika]

does it make you feel any better that everytime i close the front door when i go out I think about dying and how I would much rather go back inside and try not die?
and when im in the car I think about what would happen if I died in a crash? What my funeral would be like and would anyone realise that I was the happiest/luckiest person alive? That I am at the top of the food chain of Karma? Then I curse myself for having such a great life that all I can think about is fear of dying?

That this Livejournal has seemed to help me because I can get myself down in words somewhere so I wont be lost forever?
And that I fear dying.

All the time. Every day.

But the best thing to do is not allow it to affect your life or actions in any way. So when you get that liscence - you drive and practise. And your one of those people who will be responsible enough to do everything properly. You will do well. And when you do - you will take me out for icecream.

[aliboc]

thanks u guys, its kool to know other people scared as well....and that u dont think im weird..well u do...but in other things...
yeh i talk too much :)

anyway thanks a lot u guys, for taking the time to write me a big arse comment it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy

[loni_lovesalot]

i think you should come online

[lilac_liar]

everyone is scared to be on the road, i am scared of the exact same thing, and i feel my heart stop so many times when i dont concentrate one second... there are a lot of bad drivers thats true, i have already had so many bad experiences with cars, but you do have to carry on, its your freedom, and so much easier to see people. has andrew have his licence yet?