I have fallen for someone but i have been so pushed away that it makes my heart hurt more then ever.. I have never felt this way about someone and the more i am pushed away the closer i want to be to her. Every thought of her gives me chills... The beauty of her gives me hope in the world. Her laugh makes me smile.. But the distance is killing me

sometimes i really don't understand the circles that we as people get ourselves in. It seems that everything that happens to me i don't understand until like months later. I wish i had super powers and could no the reason behind things right away. I have been hanging out with the two most awesome girls of my life at the moment.... and it's always ( Read more... )

well work today sucked... it was horrible.. i don't no why. it went by really slow. but now i am at darla's and i thought that things would be weird and they kind of are. but i dunno. there is really nothing i can do. and i want to stay friends with everyone so ya. i just don't no what to do... my mom is killing me inside... sometimes i really don' ( Read more... )

i love anika..

well i work at victoria's secrets now. i dunno. it's ok i guess..... but anywho.. ya.. heres a pic of the people that are awesome...... and if you don't like it to bad...
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these past couple of days have been fun. But i am afraid to say that they must come to an end. Every notion i have to become someone is running threw my body like wildfire and i can't fuck it up. Lastnight i was way to drunk drinking the vodka wasn't a very good idea. I threw up everything and anything that i ate. It was horrible, like the exorcist ( Read more... )

today is a boring day..... Extremely boring. I didn't roll up from the floor until bout 12 or so... My back was hurting, so i just didn't want to get up. I haven't really done a damn thing and i am liking it. I haven't really posted on livejournal lately cause i have figured there are more important things in life to take care of instead of being ( Read more... )

ANXIETY

hmmm.... where to start... I am not sure yet. I'm moving to Florida in January... I am so scared and fucking nervous about it. I don't even think that I know what I am doing. That's ok I guess... There's always time to be speratic in a person's life right? Well, next fall I am starting at FSU (Florida State University) and I am going to be ( Read more... )

la di da di da, i've been up since 6 this morning, i am quite bored, and i am listening to my bird whistle, and drinking coffee. I am about to go have a cigarette with this coffee, then go take a shower or something. I am not sure yet. I am kind of dancing to SpiceWorld also. This is great. It's all because I'm Gangsta...

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