Two Face/Harvey Dent

[aliceisapilot]

I am finding out--well, not "finding out", per se, but allowing myself to realize--that it's true what they say about gemini: twins, or two oftentimes competing sides, are often at work in one whole. I hope that writing about this will help me make sense of it. I haven't decided if this will be a private entry or not.

It has become apparent to me

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[lux_angelis]

I am the same way...I could barely do laundry at the new apt. because I was scared I'd do it wrong, or look stupid, or not be able to unlock the door, or something. I hate getting gas at new stations in case they're different (they never are). I have to talk on my phone while walking between classes or I feel awkward and don't know what to do with my attention. I worry about how I'm walking, how I smile, how hard I breathe...ugh.

But then you know how loud and brazen I can be.

I think it's normal. I hope it's normal. But if it isn't I'm here with you being weird!

It was late but when you signed off I found the post of my craziness

[cthulhu012]

Here was my meltdown

[5tarry_nights]

Oh Caitlinsss.

Don't worry about feeling like a schizo, we all really have these ideas and moments in our lives. At times I'm convinced of another side to myself, a selfish little cunt that loves to fuck things up and be terrible in general. Sorry to the people who've had to deal with him. Mostly when I'm too strained to really control myself well, but with some effort that's been less and less.

However, this isn't about me. I really feel for you Caitlin, and I can see everything you're saying here.

It definitely sounds like you have a social anxiety disorder of some sort. You're not just shy, you're deathly afraid of social situations sometimes. It's a feeling no one should have to deal with, and I think you should try to find some help on it. I'd see a psychiatrist or at least a psychologist.

I love you the way you are, Caitlin, haha. I'd like you to be happier, though :)

[5tarry_nights]

Oh, and yeah my mom has some social anxiety as well. Not like yours, it came along with her depression and is milder, but maybe that's why you two got along so well haha.

:D

[aliceisapilot]

Thanks a lot, you guys. Y'all mean a lot to me :D