The Reasons
Well, so far this journal has been used to note what is bad and shitty in my relationship, making AJ to look like a total jerk bastard who won't tell me anything.
He does give me reasons on why he is with me, and those reasons are what gives me hope about us.
Because you look pretty in the morning when we wake up.
Because you make sure I'm awake and on time for all my appointments.
Because you do pretty much everything I ask of you.
Because right now I'm not making much money you're still here doing what's needed for us to survive.
Because you didn't run.
Because you stuck wit me thru thick n thin through jail time.
Because you don't lie.
Because you don't cheat.
Because you have pretty eyes.
Because you have a great smile.
Because even though I'm an asshole you're here.
Because I'm doing nothing in life right now to progress, yet you're still here.
Because white girls aren't supposed to have booty.
Because we've only fought one major time and it got resolved in 5 minutes.
Because when I needed you to stay out here with me, when I know you wanted to go home, you still stayed.
Because even though I know a majority of your friends and family don't like or approve of me you're still with me.
Because you're not like other women who create problems and stress.
Because WE NEVER FIGHT.
Because you make me not wanna be with anyone else.
I'm haPpy with you the way you are. You don't hafta change unless YOU want too.
I'm happy with where we're at n I'll never look at you different for what you do
BeCause no matter how much of an asshole I am you stay with me... I'm sorry I'm an asshole at times and I hope you can deal with it cause I don't wanna lose you as much as you don't wanna lose me...
I feel the same way about you its just hard to express myself when I'm sober compared to when I'm on one. I'm sorry for that I know you wanna hear reassurance and I promise I will try to show it to you more than I have been.
You're not gonna lose me. I don't think you're unattractive or fat. I know you notice guys looking at you. That's cause your pretty. I hella care about you and I wouldn't be living in sac if I didn't.
BecausE either way shit goeS even if we didn't make enough for a rooM or we barely had enough to eat you stayed here.. I went to jail. You sTayed around and put money on my books... You told me that you wouldn't leave as long as you had me. You made me feel good about myself.. Basically what I'm sayin is that you're here for me. And I'm here for yoU...
BECAUSE YOU'RE HERE FOR ME TO THE END AND IM HERE FOR YOU TO THE END.
Because out of all the bs, stress and sadness I put you thru you're still here stronger than ever.
The way you smile, the way you giggle n laugh. Even though it irritates me the way you try n guilt trip when I tell you no to Something.
Cause no matter what happens during the day I can look at you before I go to bed and feel good about everything. Makes me feel content and happy.
Cause no matter how bad I feel you can always make me smile or laugh. I may not show it but you do. Not to mention your hawt. Your hair is pretty, I love your lips, and your eyes shimmer
because you're too adorable to get mad or upset with. And if I do I can't be mad for long.. That's for sure.
I like you cause you're a strong willed person. You may not act it sometimes n let shit get to you but I know you're strong.
Because when we're doing bad or I feel like shit you give 110% to making the situation or me feel better.
Cause when all else fails I can turn to you to make me feel better or like everything is gunna be alright
Cause even though you throw your lil fits you're still always good to me.
Cause you try your hardest to look uber pretty for me and I appreciate it.
Cause I'd be lost without you.
Because you always do your best to look pretty for me and make everything right. And because it seems you devote your life to making me happy. Something no ones ever done
Cause you're one of the most non selfish people to me.. I mean you just got time wit your friends and you're grateful.
Because even though I lied to you... You realized that we're best together n that we can overcome anything. I know its a big thing to n I'm sorry. You do make me happy baby otherwise I'd leave or tell you.
Cause you're happy to be with me and accept me for who I am. Something no one else has done...
Because everyday you prove to me that you're here 108654% for me. Never cease to amaze me
Because you put me first before everyone cept your grandpa
Because you do nothing but try to better me or do better for me.
Cause you make me feel good and special inside. And even when I'm feeling down knowing that you'll be by my side no matter what makes everything all better
Because you consult me about everything you do meaning I can put my full trust into you...
Also because you do any and everything for me no questions asked..
Cause even when times are hard you find a way to find a positive outlook and keep me thinking right and not letting shit get to me
Because you pull through every time I need you the most. You haven't failed me yet.
Because you've been staying strong the past couple days even though shit has been rough.. I'm happy that you're with me babe don't ever doubt how I feel for you
Because even all the shit I put you through you still stuck with me and even went out and did the whole apartment thing. I like you cause you care for me like you say you do
because you're intelligent and have things together.
Because you're trying not to be so insecure.. Also because you've held your composure and haven't cried in a few days.
Because even though you don't really feel comfortable aroUnd alotta my friends you still stick it out so I have a good time...
I'm sorry baby I don't give you reassurance daily but I hope you know that me being with you all day everyday should mean that I'm with you 100% and I'm not going anYwhere. Period.
Because your doing your best to keep me and you both happy. And remember that I don't think or look at u different because of what you do.. Your the one I want, no other girl. Stop worrying.
I'm thankful for you because you provide for both us when you don't have to. I'm thankful that you don't lie and are faithful to me.. I'm thankful that your still here thru all the crying and stress.
Because you never try to change me and accept me for me
Because you're a really strong person. You may break down at times but you always find the strength to keep going. And that's something I adore about you.
I'm sorry you feel the way you do. I know I don't act like I used to and I don't know why. The only thing I know is that its me and not you. Ill try harder to show you affection without you asking.. I don't know what's gotten into me.. You're not fat, or disgusting, or unattractive. I'm happy with you and that's all that should matter. Everyone goes thru hard times n we may go thru a bit more, but that's what makes us... Us.. Don't worry about it babe all the insecurities and doubts are bs.. Nothing for you to worry about.. Ill try my hardest to make you feel better..
Because your my everything and then some.. Self explainatory
Because your always beautiful in my eyes.
Because you try your best to look astounding for me.
Because you accept me for who I am n don't try n change me.
I'm sorry you feel insecure n think your ugly but I never think that and you need to realize n remember that... I care about you a lot babe..
The things that make you beautiful and one of a kind are........
How you always sneeze on me.
How even with short hair you were beautiful I can only imagine how you'll look with long hair..
Your cute little feet.
How smooth your skin is..
your beautiful smile
Cause no matter how mad am I am or stressed out I'd never wanna leave you.. I don't know what it is but when I figure it out ill letcha know
Because you been the most faithful respectful and with it girl I ever been with. You make me feel special and one of a kind and I appreciate it and adore you for it
Because you deal with all my bs and still stick thru it.. I'm very grateful to have you.. Thanks for bein there
Because you are the best thing that's happened to me in a very long time. I make you deal without large amounts of stress and your still here. Thank you.
Because your amazing and even though I'm ana sshole and you still deal with me. Becuz u always try to be your best and look your best for me. Sorry I don't Compliment you more. I'm adjusting to having a girlfriend who expects those type of things when I'm not used to it
Because I wanna settle down and so far youve showed me your the one for me. Im glad I have you and am thankful everyday for it.
I like u cuz u try ur best to do good by me n urself and cause when I wake up I'm nothin but happy your with me
Because you've been doing your best to not cry and be strong even though I know its hard for you.. I really do appreciate it even though I don't show it
Because even though I'm an asshole and I put you thru alotta shit ur here. And because you look beautiful and sexy for me everyday. I'm truly lucky to have you!
Because you make me feel whole. I know for a fact I'd be at a loss without you. I'm thankful everyday for having you even though I don't say it.
I'm with you because you make me feel good about myself and I feel happy and complete.
And last but not least....Because you're my one and only
The fact that he gives me reasons, well, thats a lot. He isn't the type of person to express himself at all towards who ever he is with, yet he opened up with me. That means we do have some hope towards our relationship. That things will work out for us.
Yes, we have a lot of difficulties that we have to overcome. But, he's showing me a side he hasn't showed anyone else, so that in itself makes me feel special and like we will make it.
He does give me reasons on why he is with me, and those reasons are what gives me hope about us.
Because you look pretty in the morning when we wake up.
Because you make sure I'm awake and on time for all my appointments.
Because you do pretty much everything I ask of you.
Because right now I'm not making much money you're still here doing what's needed for us to survive.
Because you didn't run.
Because you stuck wit me thru thick n thin through jail time.
Because you don't lie.
Because you don't cheat.
Because you have pretty eyes.
Because you have a great smile.
Because even though I'm an asshole you're here.
Because I'm doing nothing in life right now to progress, yet you're still here.
Because white girls aren't supposed to have booty.
Because we've only fought one major time and it got resolved in 5 minutes.
Because when I needed you to stay out here with me, when I know you wanted to go home, you still stayed.
Because even though I know a majority of your friends and family don't like or approve of me you're still with me.
Because you're not like other women who create problems and stress.
Because WE NEVER FIGHT.
Because you make me not wanna be with anyone else.
I'm haPpy with you the way you are. You don't hafta change unless YOU want too.
I'm happy with where we're at n I'll never look at you different for what you do
BeCause no matter how much of an asshole I am you stay with me... I'm sorry I'm an asshole at times and I hope you can deal with it cause I don't wanna lose you as much as you don't wanna lose me...
I feel the same way about you its just hard to express myself when I'm sober compared to when I'm on one. I'm sorry for that I know you wanna hear reassurance and I promise I will try to show it to you more than I have been.
You're not gonna lose me. I don't think you're unattractive or fat. I know you notice guys looking at you. That's cause your pretty. I hella care about you and I wouldn't be living in sac if I didn't.
BecausE either way shit goeS even if we didn't make enough for a rooM or we barely had enough to eat you stayed here.. I went to jail. You sTayed around and put money on my books... You told me that you wouldn't leave as long as you had me. You made me feel good about myself.. Basically what I'm sayin is that you're here for me. And I'm here for yoU...
BECAUSE YOU'RE HERE FOR ME TO THE END AND IM HERE FOR YOU TO THE END.
Because out of all the bs, stress and sadness I put you thru you're still here stronger than ever.
The way you smile, the way you giggle n laugh. Even though it irritates me the way you try n guilt trip when I tell you no to Something.
Cause no matter what happens during the day I can look at you before I go to bed and feel good about everything. Makes me feel content and happy.
Cause no matter how bad I feel you can always make me smile or laugh. I may not show it but you do. Not to mention your hawt. Your hair is pretty, I love your lips, and your eyes shimmer
because you're too adorable to get mad or upset with. And if I do I can't be mad for long.. That's for sure.
I like you cause you're a strong willed person. You may not act it sometimes n let shit get to you but I know you're strong.
Because when we're doing bad or I feel like shit you give 110% to making the situation or me feel better.
Cause when all else fails I can turn to you to make me feel better or like everything is gunna be alright
Cause even though you throw your lil fits you're still always good to me.
Cause you try your hardest to look uber pretty for me and I appreciate it.
Cause I'd be lost without you.
Because you always do your best to look pretty for me and make everything right. And because it seems you devote your life to making me happy. Something no ones ever done
Cause you're one of the most non selfish people to me.. I mean you just got time wit your friends and you're grateful.
Because even though I lied to you... You realized that we're best together n that we can overcome anything. I know its a big thing to n I'm sorry. You do make me happy baby otherwise I'd leave or tell you.
Cause you're happy to be with me and accept me for who I am. Something no one else has done...
Because everyday you prove to me that you're here 108654% for me. Never cease to amaze me
Because you put me first before everyone cept your grandpa
Because you do nothing but try to better me or do better for me.
Cause you make me feel good and special inside. And even when I'm feeling down knowing that you'll be by my side no matter what makes everything all better
Because you consult me about everything you do meaning I can put my full trust into you...
Also because you do any and everything for me no questions asked..
Cause even when times are hard you find a way to find a positive outlook and keep me thinking right and not letting shit get to me
Because you pull through every time I need you the most. You haven't failed me yet.
Because you've been staying strong the past couple days even though shit has been rough.. I'm happy that you're with me babe don't ever doubt how I feel for you
Because even all the shit I put you through you still stuck with me and even went out and did the whole apartment thing. I like you cause you care for me like you say you do
because you're intelligent and have things together.
Because you're trying not to be so insecure.. Also because you've held your composure and haven't cried in a few days.
Because even though you don't really feel comfortable aroUnd alotta my friends you still stick it out so I have a good time...
I'm sorry baby I don't give you reassurance daily but I hope you know that me being with you all day everyday should mean that I'm with you 100% and I'm not going anYwhere. Period.
Because your doing your best to keep me and you both happy. And remember that I don't think or look at u different because of what you do.. Your the one I want, no other girl. Stop worrying.
I'm thankful for you because you provide for both us when you don't have to. I'm thankful that you don't lie and are faithful to me.. I'm thankful that your still here thru all the crying and stress.
Because you never try to change me and accept me for me
Because you're a really strong person. You may break down at times but you always find the strength to keep going. And that's something I adore about you.
I'm sorry you feel the way you do. I know I don't act like I used to and I don't know why. The only thing I know is that its me and not you. Ill try harder to show you affection without you asking.. I don't know what's gotten into me.. You're not fat, or disgusting, or unattractive. I'm happy with you and that's all that should matter. Everyone goes thru hard times n we may go thru a bit more, but that's what makes us... Us.. Don't worry about it babe all the insecurities and doubts are bs.. Nothing for you to worry about.. Ill try my hardest to make you feel better..
Because your my everything and then some.. Self explainatory
Because your always beautiful in my eyes.
Because you try your best to look astounding for me.
Because you accept me for who I am n don't try n change me.
I'm sorry you feel insecure n think your ugly but I never think that and you need to realize n remember that... I care about you a lot babe..
The things that make you beautiful and one of a kind are........
How you always sneeze on me.
How even with short hair you were beautiful I can only imagine how you'll look with long hair..
Your cute little feet.
How smooth your skin is..
your beautiful smile
Cause no matter how mad am I am or stressed out I'd never wanna leave you.. I don't know what it is but when I figure it out ill letcha know
Because you been the most faithful respectful and with it girl I ever been with. You make me feel special and one of a kind and I appreciate it and adore you for it
Because you deal with all my bs and still stick thru it.. I'm very grateful to have you.. Thanks for bein there
Because you are the best thing that's happened to me in a very long time. I make you deal without large amounts of stress and your still here. Thank you.
Because your amazing and even though I'm ana sshole and you still deal with me. Becuz u always try to be your best and look your best for me. Sorry I don't Compliment you more. I'm adjusting to having a girlfriend who expects those type of things when I'm not used to it
Because I wanna settle down and so far youve showed me your the one for me. Im glad I have you and am thankful everyday for it.
I like u cuz u try ur best to do good by me n urself and cause when I wake up I'm nothin but happy your with me
Because you've been doing your best to not cry and be strong even though I know its hard for you.. I really do appreciate it even though I don't show it
Because even though I'm an asshole and I put you thru alotta shit ur here. And because you look beautiful and sexy for me everyday. I'm truly lucky to have you!
Because you make me feel whole. I know for a fact I'd be at a loss without you. I'm thankful everyday for having you even though I don't say it.
I'm with you because you make me feel good about myself and I feel happy and complete.
And last but not least....Because you're my one and only
The fact that he gives me reasons, well, thats a lot. He isn't the type of person to express himself at all towards who ever he is with, yet he opened up with me. That means we do have some hope towards our relationship. That things will work out for us.
Yes, we have a lot of difficulties that we have to overcome. But, he's showing me a side he hasn't showed anyone else, so that in itself makes me feel special and like we will make it.