I've never had the inability to be with someone drive me so recklessly insane.  I'm on a path to self-destruction over nothing.  I don't even have your rejection, yet i torment myself over its possibility everyday, which only results in me pushing you further and further away.

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I walk through this city not even knowing if i feel empty, all i know is that i'm completely alone and i can't understand why i feel in love with someone i don't even know.

erwin olaf
ivonne thein

reminder, my dear dragon:
watch rudo y cursi
re-sole
stay under control

i know you're not the one i want,
so why did i lose it over wanting your attention and not getting it?
why do i even want your attention?

I crossed the border from lubricated to morose.
goodnight.

shirt tucked in and shoes untied.

I had a really good conversation with a friend last night about the fluctuating nature of life. In my attempt to console him i realized that i was also convincing and comforting myself.

Come September, i'm going to make things better.

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Anywhere i go, is somewhere i've never gone before

i was an actor for a directing class today
where i was supposed to be on the receiving end of oral sex
it was good stuff.  the professor asked me to come back and act again.