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Last night I completely lost my cool. I was crying so hard that today I had to call in sick because my eyes were so puffy. They didn't return to normal until way after noon. I ended up working from home since for once I was needed ( Read more... )

she will be beautiful, in a unique way and not in the obvious way. i will be equally beautiful to her ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure that it's the new medicine.....but maybe she's right. Maybe it is that the pills just bring me back to a normal state of mind. I've always felt that the happiness the medicine beings is fake and therefore resisted it and resented it really. But, this new stuff just makes me feel better. I mean, I'm still sad and nothing has ( Read more... )

Jillian stopped by. She borrowed my truck again to move. I haven't seen her in a few weeks. It was very very weird. I couldn't look at her. We talked a little bit and I showed her photos from my trip to Virginia. She got up to go, and even though I told myself not to, I grabbed her and we held each other for several long minutes, let each ( Read more... )

I've applied to consolidate again. I may be imagining it, but I sense that I will be laid off very soon. We just don't have any work. It's terrible. I've worked so hard with this company, and have busted my ass for them. I have next to no work for the next few weeks, and a billability goal that is absolutely impossible to meet. Tomorrow I ( Read more... )

I wish that I had been more informed of what life really is when I was a carefree student. I mean, I thought that I would have this fabulous career after college and that my life would just fall into place around it. Now that I realize that I don't have that perfect job nor that perfect life that was supposed to just develop, I'm struggling with ( Read more... )

Well, I'm home again. I never thought that I would be calling Long Beach "home" but it really is. I love it here. I wonder why so many lesbians love this city? Where are all of those lesbians anyway ( Read more... )

Why did you call me back tonight? How could you not understand that I need time to get over you? Please just understand that. I can't make it any clearer. I'm still in love with you which means that I can't be friends just yet. I know how much you mean to me and I know that you'll never be out of my life, because you haven't purposely HURT me ( Read more... )

It's been exactly a week since I've spoken to you, and longer since I've seen you. I had to call you tonight to arrange to pick up my truck. Of course it is just the circumstances, but you can't pick me up at the airport because you have class. How many times have I picked you up and dropped you off at an airport? You really piss me off. ( Read more... )