I failed. I hope the world is happy. I took a freakin driving test and failed. Ugh I hated the guy..he was nice but made me feel horrible at the same time. I'm not used to failing, true..but this hurt so much and I find myself using it as an excuse to hide other hurts. I'm hurting so bad and I broke down 3 maybe 4 times today...in secret mind you. ( Read more... )

I'm not going into details cause that would take WAY to long and it would bore you all incredibly so yeah. I've just been staying up late, crying, hating life, watching a MILLION movies and have been lost into deep thought. That about sums it up really...feels like none of this will end. Ryan is being a complete...jerk we'll say. He wants to come ( Read more... )

Wed.: what did I do on Wed..hmm...*thinks* Golly I really don't remember much lol I got a letter from Terra..read it and wrote her one back..its already on its way :-D umm I rescheduled my driving test to Aug. 5th for reasons we'll say..umm..we went to PetSmart for a bit and then got some film developed...we sang some Kareoke...Brittany went to bed ( Read more... )

Yesterday was relaxing until night fell. I found myself impatient and frustrated everytime my mom or sis said something to me. I'm really not used to this. I'm not used to being in a house with just the family, I'm not used to not going out, I'm not used to not having friends and I'm not used to not going to church. I mean in the beginning it was ( Read more... )

I'm not going into details about last weekend..basically we went to Bakersfield again cause my uncles dog was dying. Brittany and I spent the weekend playing with Kitties and singing. I also spent the weekend NOT sleeping lol so yeah everything else was just..blah...Yesterday was filled with sleeping and a bit of driving. I can't believe how bad I ( Read more... )

I'm not going into details about my week because I did in CL so check there if you want more details. Basically everyone made it a living hell and only a couple things kept me going. This week has just been full of running around and yelling and I just started to break down...I just really need to come home ( Read more... )

Got to drive today..did EXCELLENT driving and parking hehe good stuff. Lets just hope I keep it up and do well on the test. We're going to Magic Mountain on Tuesday..unless we can't reschedule my drivers training in which we shall go to MM on Wed. Lets see...oh right I went shopping today :-D we WERE gunna get shorts, but instead we found 2 cute ( Read more... )

The weekend was..well long. I shall spare you..if u want to know about the weekend check out CL cause it explains most of it in there. *sigh* ugh 3 weeks..I've only been here 3 weeks and I'm going insane. Though I'm going insane things are going to get better. Magic Mountain next week along with my birthday. Possibly volunteering or possibly I'll ( Read more... )

Alright well my day is complete I got to hear from Robert :-P lol sorry..just good to hear from him. He didn't have a chance to call me cause the stupid idiot (love him to death) crashed his ATV into the fence and has to be up at the crack of dawn to fix it *snorts* lol at least he's ok :) he also has to fix his ATV..poor thing has needed new tires ( Read more... )

Lets see what did I do today..sleep, eat, dirve, forgot money, got food, and drove a little bit more. Yeah that sounds about right lol I fell asleep for about and hour and now I'm up again..sheer habbit to be awake at 11:30..thats when Robert USUALLY e-mails me back so this is when I'm usually online...I'm hoping I'll get myself to sleep before 3.. ( Read more... )