Oh the tiredness

[alisak]

WOW I am wiped out today. It hit yesterday evening, basically the moment Spouse walked in the door. I guess I just overdid it a bit and my insomnia finally caught up with me. I did my best and went to sleep super early (compared to when I have been going to bed), but still woke up at 2am and dozed on and off until J woke for a feeding at 3:30am.

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[mh75]

I am not a fan of waking in the middle of the night and stumbling down the hall to feed the little grrrl, but once I'm there and everything is silent it is so lovely. She just lies quietly on my lap, gulping away, half asleep, while her hands softly touch my face, neck, shoulder, breast. She is discovering that she is separate from me and it's sad and exciting. Then, when she's finished, I put her up on my shoulder and she just molds to me all warm and soft and safe. It is one of the few times I get to just hold her. Normally, during waking hours she's like a greased pig, twisting and turning and squealing. I will miss these times when they're gone.

Yeah.
M is old enough for me to encourage her to give up her last middle of the night feeding, but i'm not ready to give it up yet, as much as i could use uninterrupted sleep.

[agerard]

That's so cute.

I'm glad you've picked up the blog again.