Comments | alisonem: The beginning of the holidays..

alisonem

The beginning of the holidays..

Nov 14, 2004 23:39

So today was a rough day. A REALLY rough day... It was the first holiday get-together since the big D... And it was Dad's side. And it was awkward b/c not only was Mom not there, but neither was Aunt Brenda... So it was like super huge divorce-ville. Yuck.

And when we were leaving Dad goes, "Well that wasn't too bad..." And I go, "Why would it be?" ( Read more... )

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monicalayne November 15 2004, 13:05:48 UTC

I can't express to you how close I was to absolutely bawling to this entry. Not only because I wish with all my heart you don't have to go through this, but because it is absolutely almost exactly what I went through. Oh baby, if I could take this all away from you I would in a heartbeat. At my most recent family get together on my mom's side, it was my mom, her boyfriend, my aunt lori (minus my uncle kipp due to divorce), my aunt connie, and her boyfriend...hard. Very hard.
Gosh I just hope you know that I want to help you through this because it all rings so familiar to me, and makes all my memories and emotions flood back. :(
Love you darling
You are a pillar in his life as well and I hope you know that
You are a light in my life and to everyone else who loves you
Mon

alisonem November 16 2004, 08:09:12 UTC

As I wrote this I thought, God, I hope Mon can help me with this one.. Dad has never ever shown weakness around me. Not once in my life that I can remember. Even when my grandma died. He only choked up for one part of the eulogy he gave. And when we had to say goodbye to her in the hospital and I was sobbing, he just held me and was fine. I mean, obviously not fine, but he was strong for me. I feel like I'm going to screw up being his strength. Like I'll not be there, and I don't know what will happen ( ... )