today is a dark and rainy day ( Read more... )

i'm so in love my very core, right where i believe my soul lives, aches and buzzes and whirs and vibrates and is all neon like and resembles the infinite pattern of the tie-dyed tapestry that hangs above my borrowed bed. it is bittersweet because it can't kill me anymore because he already broke it, but it can't make me feel as alive as i did not ( Read more... )

yesterday while hiking i wondered what it would be like to be a bear or a fairy or a mosquito-- something that watches clumsy people like me spend all their lives trying to understand grace under pressure, who are eternally grieving love lost and yearning for love regained, yet find something utterly beautiful in something that just grows from the ( Read more... )

dear ____,

please don't forget about me.

love,

alex

the kids driving by blasting baba o'reilly made me feel something for the first time in awhile; infinitely sad, knowing the things they don't yet know, sure this is their last summer of drives like that, sure they're going to break one another's hearts soon enough, eat one another whole, leaving one another bored and bruised and bare.

Nick Adams Society Hemingway Conference, Lake Placid & SUNY-Plattsburgh,
October 8-11:

SCHEDULE

WEDNESDAY October 8:
4 PM arrival and check in High Peaks Resort (Lake Placid Hilton),
Lakeview Building

6 PM Opening Reception

THURSDAY October 9:
7:45-9 AM Buffet Breakfast (Main building: included in registration fee)

Academic Sessions (all ( Read more... )

there's a monster clawing its way outside my insides. oh my pet! you've always been there inside of me gnawing at my spine and consuming my heart, leaving me with very bad posture and sad, only usually you hiss and growl and the whole world understands you've been growing inside of me all the while, yet now you barely mew and i'm just meekly ( Read more... )

i'm so sad, i've become numb.

i've seriously been in trouble ever since i set my suitcase down ( Read more... )

with clenched teeth, i am a fucking goddess.