Wow how a day can change a perspective ;)

[alkalineboot]

Wow yesterdays entry was a bit insane and well, down on myself. I'm not exactly sure what I was thinking but my thought process is more clear now. Thank you everyone for being willing to be there for me in the odd ways. I see now that my life is as good as it was when I was with Danielle, as she has been saying now I can be free to do anything

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[princessnell43]

It is not selfish to want to be friends, i want the same thing for us. i am just afraid that it will hurt too much or be too confusing. i am doing the best that i can at the moment, but just because it looks as though i am handling this whole thing with such grace and ease, i am not and it is more difficult to deal with you being gone than anything i could have imagined. there are many things that i miss about you and being with you and seeing you everyday, but i would not trade all of it for the last few months we were together. i am glad that youre more independent now, i just hope that you can make that work for you and no matter what happens- whether or not we end up able to be friends, there will always be a spot in my heart for you

[alkalineboot]

thank you Danielle. I know that it will be hard for you to forgive me I'm having trouble forgiving me, I know that what we are right now is confusing, its no lie, I'm saddened by it all and I was hoping to see you before next semester, but meh, whatever, I mean that comment made me feel like i really did lose my best friend but i will deal... i always do, :) in the end everything works out to the best :-/ I think.

[princessnell43]

I have to say that today was by far the hardest day that i have faced.... i hope you had an awesome xmas and im sorry if i disappointed you again.

[alkalineboot]

mine too, it was interesting telling the family that half of the presents were from you... my mom was like when did you guys break up and i was like well we taking a break when we bought the presents but now its offical. this not talking to you thing sucks major balls, but i figure if you want to actually talk you would call the house. I love you in everyway possible, with the exception of hatred :) but have a great holiday.... don't get too drunk on NYE :P I'm leaving for NJ on this wednesday and we are coming back on the first. Then the second its back up to school where i am long distance and you don't have to think about me at all :P