i don't NEED anyone but myself.

birffffday, fred. i love you. wish you were here. i'll raise my glass to yewwwwwwwwww.

I'm just so ridiculously stoked. I met someone whose company I completely enjoy. There are comparisons that could be drawn, but that's irrelevent. Just. Ah. The freckles. And the eyes. It's adorable. And whenever I wake up next to him I just start smiling. It's a weird feeling. But nice. He just kind of gets me. Most of the time. And he cracks me ( Read more... )

almost out of the woods. Now there's just the matter of the people who think they know everything about me, but, as it goes. Don't know a goddamn thing.

I am giving this until midnight to be resolved, and at that point I'm giving up. It's been four days of yesnoyesnononoyesno. &it's growing emotionally taxing. I guess I don't help myself by listening to the playlist I made for him over and over. I'd like a happy resolution but I'll take the shitty one if I have to. I don't care for wondering. This

I have determined that I am incapable of normal, healthy, functional relationships with males. It's kind of ridiculous. There is a plethora of reasons, not the least of which being that I am a complete hypocrite. And I project. And create epic and ridiculous scenerios in my head. If someone really likes me, I find something wrong with them 99% of ( Read more... )

Been really happy lately.

"My heart is ticking like a box, sent to me by annonymous. And now I'm scared to open it. I'm always blowin up to bits. I'm always running out of lines. Always running out of time."

hey. I'm stoked!

I went on a date with a younger boy last night. That is the first time I have ever ever done that. But it was really nice and we accidentally funded a cult and walked through a park and I was nervous. It was nice to actually be excited to be around someone in that sense. I dunno. It was nice and he was nice. It feels good to be told I' beautiful. ( Read more... )