Facebook just isn't the place to actually process. I don't know that I'm even ready or able to process yet. I have parallel thought tracks. I read the information about the shooting yesterday on one track, processing analytically and hungry to get any semblance of understanding out of an inherently nonsensical act. And, on the other track, I'm ( Read more... )

I am getting more and more overwhelmed by the day. School feels low on the priority list and I really need to change that. It's my future, after all. But I've landed in a job that seems to be all-consuming, in a much different way than I'm used to. Not that it is difficult, but it is so political. Open hostility flying everywhere and it seems like ( Read more... )

Halfway through May. Rob graduates with his Associate's on Saturday. It will be the first time he's ever finished a degree. In fact, he will be the first in his immediate family to reach a college degree. I'm so proud of him. My sister is coming in to town, and then my father-in-law the weekend after ( Read more... )

Every once in a while I ponder my upbringing and the emphasis on prayer growing up. I can remember it so tangible, so real. And now, when someone is facing a tragedy or hardship, the words "I'll pray for you" sound like a cop out. It's much easier to pray than to, say, study medicine or cook meals or sit in someone's grief. It almost makes me angry ( Read more... )

It's May again. May. That month that is SO FULL of everything I should be doing and need to be doing and enjoy doing but get stressed about doing. Birthdays and graduations and family and all the things ( Read more... )

After being on Facebook for so long, this space is intimidatingly vast. I find myself unable to write, mostly unable to think in long strings of coherent thought. I put the Facebook on hold, mostly because I'm tired of family and friends and coworkers goading me about how much time I spend on there. They're right, of course. I find myself jonesing ( Read more... )

Saturday was great. Irish festival and a great afternoon at Lifetime swimming with Ama ( Read more... )

I'm so torn. Do I continue to attend, amass even more debt, and realize my dream of getting my LCSW? Or do I quit now, save myself the huge debt, and cut my losses? There's no doubt my schooling is difficult, time consuming, and expensive. But I feel like it is my one shot to do it right. I'm at a crossroads with it. I wish so much I had not wasted ( Read more... )

Honestly I can't remember my last post here. Is it the fact that I can't seem to put more than a few sentences together about my life? I certainly hope not ( Read more... )

It's been a while. Again. I really wish I wouldn't wait so long between updates ( Read more... )