Esther.

Oh Esther.

I am lost.

gosh, i just don't know...

illumination?

illuminate me.

"pumpkinhead" just popped into my head! lordy, bitches.

it's really lovely out.

and i feel pretty good. i'm going to belize this summer to a field school for archaeology. so i'll figure out soon what i want to do next.

:) i feel happy right now, which really just goes to show how vague and random a feeling it is. because nothing is that much different than it ever was.

home soon!

i find passion to be hard. when you're passionate you are often deceived. you don't see all aspects of something. blinded by the beauty of something. my tendency toward pretension makes me very ashamed. and very afraid. but i would not want to blind myself to the foolishness of others by assuming that mine is the only. however it is very hard to ( Read more... )

Happy Valentine's Day :)

Two of my classes were cancelled today for the massive snowage that has occurred. A chance to catch up on my reading, emails, and sleep.

And make peppermint tea.

no. i'm sorry, but i don't believe you ( Read more... )

how does one explain a good day? why was it a good day. this is so amusing to me because bad days i think are more readily explained. i could identify more easily why something is bad, rather than why it is good. yet...today was a good day. and i have no clear idea why. i don't feel like this very often, which is somewhat sad. but it's irrelevent ( Read more... )

I'd forgotten the feeling when I interviewed at Bard when I passionately declared my purpose to create ( Read more... )

sometimes, a lot of the time lately, i can't stand myself. i have no legitimate thoughts. and mostly just feel fake. i feel uncomfortable with my own words.

Ali!

thank you so much for my purse!it was so awesome to have a surprise waiting on my desk. it brought a genuine spontaneous smile to my face. it's pretty and i like the zig zag stitching.

love,
alison