[OOC: Playlist]
Born to Run--Bruce Springsteen
Together we could break this trap
We'll run till we drop, baby we'll never go back
Will you walk with me out on the wire
`cause baby I'm just a scared and lonely rider
But I gotta find out how it feels
I want to know if love is wild, girl I want to know if love is real
[Matt/Katya (height of relationship)]
Both Hands--Ani DiFranco
in each other's shadows we grew less and less tall
and eventually our theories couldn't explain it all
and I'm recording our history now on the bedroom wall
and eventually the landlord will come
and paint over it all
[Matt/Katya (beginnings of relationship)]
Broken--Lifehouse
The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
[Matt/Scout (beginning)]
Castles Fall--Stoney Clove Lane
But you're not here at all
To watch my castles fall
And turn to dust
[Matt/Katya (post!relationship)]
Electric--Tristan Prettyman
He’s electric
Can’t forget it
Yeah he’s electric
Don’t forget it
[Matt (charm)]
Everlong--Foo Fighters
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
[Matt/Katya (peak of relationship)]
The Freshmen--The Verve Pipe
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
[Matt/Katya (post her death)]
Good Night Sweet Girl--Ghost of the Robot
Are we done for now,
Or is this for good,
Will there be something in time?
With us there should.
[Matt/Katya (moment she leaves)]
Goodbye Love--RENT
Yes, you live a lie, tell you why
You're always preaching not to be numb
When that's how you thrive
[Matt/Katya (immediately after breakup)]
He's a Tramp--Lady and the Tramp
He's a tramp, he's a scoundrel
He's a rounder, he's a cad
He's a tramp, but I love him
Yes, and even I have got it pretty bad
[Matt (charm)]
Highway and the Moon--Jeffrey Foucault
We go tearing our love down
To build it up again
From different directions we mean the same
We are the same as we've always been
[Matt/Katya/Scout (love)]
The Horror of Our Love--Ludo
Ancient language
Speak through fingers
The awful edges
Where you end and I begin
[Matt (addiction)
Ithaca--Redbird
Love will never listen to us
And why should it?
Love knows the score
It builds better songs than we do
It sings a better metaphor
[Matt/Katya/Scout (missing Katya with Scout)]
Joe Bou--Murder by Death
we were hungry drunk and half naked and
didn't notice the time change
from the last place we'd been.
[Matt/Scout (general life)]
Miles from the Lightning--Jeffrey Foucault
Count your miles from the lightning
Rest your tired eyes
Count your blessings against the thunder
Kiss the years goodbye
[Matt/Scout (sleepytiems)]
Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)--Arcade Fire
You change all the lead
sleepin' in my head,
as the day grows dim
I hear you sing a golden hymn.
[Matt/Scout (playtime)]
Primrose Hill--Loudon Wainwright III
'Cause life gets slippery
When you're living on the side
Yeah I know I should quit drinking
But I haven't even tried
My mutt's licking my fingers
And I'm wetting my lips
I got a can of extra strong
And a bag of chicken and chips
[Matt/Katya (depression after her)]
Radio Protector--65daysofstatic
instrumental
[Matt (kill and high afterward)]
Running for Home--Matthew Good
i close my eyes now and i scream
i turn the light on and there's nothing left redeeming
i saw your face before it changed
the gun it makes you look nicer in a bad way
[Matt/Scout (post Scout depression)]
Saviour--Rise Against
there is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
and there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
but seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
so tell me now
if this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause I don't know
that's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
[Matt/Katya (general theme)]
She's My Ride Home--Blue October
Now here we are
We're licking skin to wipe us clean
Strike a match, pour gasoline
Ditch the scene and watch this city burn
Asleep, my lap will be a pillow steering wheel turn
I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares if no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
[Matt/Scout (general theme)]
Song of Forgetting--Next to Normal
Sing a song of forgetting
A song of the way things were not
Sing of what's lost to you
The time that you never knew
[Matt/Katya (post!breakup)]
Still Hurting--The Last 5 Years
Where can I turn?
Covered with scars I did nothing to earn
Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn
But that wouldn't change the fact
That wouldn't speed the time
Once the foundation's cracked
And I'm still hurting
[Matt/Katya (post!breakup)]
Street Light Halos--Jeffrey Foucault
Maybe every man's heart is a graveyard unkempt
And the lines on his face mark the stones
But I saw in your eyes some part of my soul
And I swear I will make you my own
[Matt/Scout (general theme)]
Thistledown Tears--Jeffrey Foucault
So don't cry your thistledown tears
Blood and water both run clear
The time to wrestle the angel is here
And the night is quickly passing
[Matt (teenage years)]
Topeka--Ludo
Every saint has ha past, every sinner has a future
[Matt (general theme)]
Train to Jackson--Jeffrey Foucault
I met a ghost who looked like me
I asked him, “Is it plain to see
Or is it hidden?”
But he never made a sound
[Matt/Aiden (brothers)]
Use Somebody--Kings of Leon
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
[Matt/Katya/Scout (love and attraction)]
What Would I Do--Falsettoland
What would I do
If I had not loved you?
How would I know what love is?
God only knows, too soon
I'll remember your faults.
[Matt/Katya/Scout (relationship endings)]
Wild Horses--(cover by Charlotte Martin)
I watched you suffer a dull aching pain
Now you decided to show me the same
[Matt/Scout (sad)]
When Your Mind's Made Up--Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova
You see you're just like everyone
When you share your falls
All you want to do is run away
And hide all by yourself
When there's fall, there's fall
There's nothing else
[Matt (failure)]
9 Crimes--Damien Rice
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
[Matt (OH GOD EVERYTHING)]
Together we could break this trap
We'll run till we drop, baby we'll never go back
Will you walk with me out on the wire
`cause baby I'm just a scared and lonely rider
But I gotta find out how it feels
I want to know if love is wild, girl I want to know if love is real
[Matt/Katya (height of relationship)]
Both Hands--Ani DiFranco
in each other's shadows we grew less and less tall
and eventually our theories couldn't explain it all
and I'm recording our history now on the bedroom wall
and eventually the landlord will come
and paint over it all
[Matt/Katya (beginnings of relationship)]
Broken--Lifehouse
The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
[Matt/Scout (beginning)]
Castles Fall--Stoney Clove Lane
But you're not here at all
To watch my castles fall
And turn to dust
[Matt/Katya (post!relationship)]
Electric--Tristan Prettyman
He’s electric
Can’t forget it
Yeah he’s electric
Don’t forget it
[Matt (charm)]
Everlong--Foo Fighters
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
[Matt/Katya (peak of relationship)]
The Freshmen--The Verve Pipe
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
[Matt/Katya (post her death)]
Good Night Sweet Girl--Ghost of the Robot
Are we done for now,
Or is this for good,
Will there be something in time?
With us there should.
[Matt/Katya (moment she leaves)]
Goodbye Love--RENT
Yes, you live a lie, tell you why
You're always preaching not to be numb
When that's how you thrive
[Matt/Katya (immediately after breakup)]
He's a Tramp--Lady and the Tramp
He's a tramp, he's a scoundrel
He's a rounder, he's a cad
He's a tramp, but I love him
Yes, and even I have got it pretty bad
[Matt (charm)]
Highway and the Moon--Jeffrey Foucault
We go tearing our love down
To build it up again
From different directions we mean the same
We are the same as we've always been
[Matt/Katya/Scout (love)]
The Horror of Our Love--Ludo
Ancient language
Speak through fingers
The awful edges
Where you end and I begin
[Matt (addiction)
Ithaca--Redbird
Love will never listen to us
And why should it?
Love knows the score
It builds better songs than we do
It sings a better metaphor
[Matt/Katya/Scout (missing Katya with Scout)]
Joe Bou--Murder by Death
we were hungry drunk and half naked and
didn't notice the time change
from the last place we'd been.
[Matt/Scout (general life)]
Miles from the Lightning--Jeffrey Foucault
Count your miles from the lightning
Rest your tired eyes
Count your blessings against the thunder
Kiss the years goodbye
[Matt/Scout (sleepytiems)]
Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)--Arcade Fire
You change all the lead
sleepin' in my head,
as the day grows dim
I hear you sing a golden hymn.
[Matt/Scout (playtime)]
Primrose Hill--Loudon Wainwright III
'Cause life gets slippery
When you're living on the side
Yeah I know I should quit drinking
But I haven't even tried
My mutt's licking my fingers
And I'm wetting my lips
I got a can of extra strong
And a bag of chicken and chips
[Matt/Katya (depression after her)]
Radio Protector--65daysofstatic
instrumental
[Matt (kill and high afterward)]
Running for Home--Matthew Good
i close my eyes now and i scream
i turn the light on and there's nothing left redeeming
i saw your face before it changed
the gun it makes you look nicer in a bad way
[Matt/Scout (post Scout depression)]
Saviour--Rise Against
there is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
and there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
but seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
so tell me now
if this ain't love then how do we get out?
cause I don't know
that's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
[Matt/Katya (general theme)]
She's My Ride Home--Blue October
Now here we are
We're licking skin to wipe us clean
Strike a match, pour gasoline
Ditch the scene and watch this city burn
Asleep, my lap will be a pillow steering wheel turn
I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares if no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
[Matt/Scout (general theme)]
Song of Forgetting--Next to Normal
Sing a song of forgetting
A song of the way things were not
Sing of what's lost to you
The time that you never knew
[Matt/Katya (post!breakup)]
Still Hurting--The Last 5 Years
Where can I turn?
Covered with scars I did nothing to earn
Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn
But that wouldn't change the fact
That wouldn't speed the time
Once the foundation's cracked
And I'm still hurting
[Matt/Katya (post!breakup)]
Street Light Halos--Jeffrey Foucault
Maybe every man's heart is a graveyard unkempt
And the lines on his face mark the stones
But I saw in your eyes some part of my soul
And I swear I will make you my own
[Matt/Scout (general theme)]
Thistledown Tears--Jeffrey Foucault
So don't cry your thistledown tears
Blood and water both run clear
The time to wrestle the angel is here
And the night is quickly passing
[Matt (teenage years)]
Topeka--Ludo
Every saint has ha past, every sinner has a future
[Matt (general theme)]
Train to Jackson--Jeffrey Foucault
I met a ghost who looked like me
I asked him, “Is it plain to see
Or is it hidden?”
But he never made a sound
[Matt/Aiden (brothers)]
Use Somebody--Kings of Leon
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
[Matt/Katya/Scout (love and attraction)]
What Would I Do--Falsettoland
What would I do
If I had not loved you?
How would I know what love is?
God only knows, too soon
I'll remember your faults.
[Matt/Katya/Scout (relationship endings)]
Wild Horses--(cover by Charlotte Martin)
I watched you suffer a dull aching pain
Now you decided to show me the same
[Matt/Scout (sad)]
When Your Mind's Made Up--Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova
You see you're just like everyone
When you share your falls
All you want to do is run away
And hide all by yourself
When there's fall, there's fall
There's nothing else
[Matt (failure)]
9 Crimes--Damien Rice
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
[Matt (OH GOD EVERYTHING)]