Things aren't the same.
Things can't change like this.
I don't like it.

You know, It hits you like a train going 100mph. And when It hits you, you forget how to smile. You forget everything that was previously thought.  All that false hope crushed to pieces. Every thought you had you realize is pointless. I've been lying to myself. I just don't remember how not to anymore. I don't want to. I just want normalcy. I want ( Read more... )

So.
Leaving tomorrow around 8. I'm excited. But I'll miss it here. Not all of it. Mostly...people. That's why you should all call my cellphone and leave me funny messages :) If you don't have the number, ask someone who does. Pfft. Who am I kidding.

Yeah. So. My mom's best friend has breast cancer. I feel so bad for my mom. She's had an awful year ( Read more... )

There's no use in wondering. It does a person no good.


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OK. So, I know I suck at 400h. It's probably the hardest race ever. I get tired, and lose. I don't care. I did so well at 100h today. I got a PR of like...18.5! That's what Mattius said. I'm very happy. I also supposedly did well in the 4x1. I really don't care though because that race is just a fun one. I absolutely love the 4x1 ( Read more... )

I feel like I have so much to do. In a way, that's how I should be feeling. I have to pack. I have to go get stupid things to bring with me. I should probably make some cd's. I wish I had an ipod. I swear, I listen to music more than half the people I know that have ipods. I'd probably wear that thing out in a year. I'm so excited though. I really ( Read more... )

Saturday was cold.
and rainy
and freezing
and me, kristy, and alyssa came in 6th.
and we spent the rest of the time in the cafeteria talking about how much we hate people.
and at one point on the way there, I woke up, looked around, and everyone was asleep.
it was actually really cool.
the way home was fun.
rating models.
then sharon rose slept ( Read more... )

Today is one of those days where I question everything. He knows so much. It hurts that he won't even remember it later on. I've never seen a couple more in love than them. It's hard to think about where she'll be without him. It's gotta be hard for her. Constantly repeating herself. Reminding him of everything. Why didn't I know this earlier? Why ( Read more... )

Mm. Weekend=fun. I love friends and the crazy things we do.

Monday was alrighttt. That lock-down was pretty insane though. There were plenty of people in my geometry class complaining, but I really didn't mind. We sat in the corner for maybe 45 minutes. Anna put her smelly feet in my face. That I didn't like, but it's not like we were doing ( Read more... )

This is my wife.


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