Head is spinning.. either that or the room is..

[allislost13]

Today.. was a hit in the face.. I moment of reality that I didn't want to go through for any recent time. But it was needed.. as much as we didn't want it to end.. thats the only thing that was going to happen. But like he said.. I'm just a girlfriend.. thats all I am.. just the girlfriend.. what a way to put it.. most people would do the same

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[lesserritual]

no no no... trust me, when I have wimmin problems I get emo.. you are allowed to be emo. I hope he stays your friend, but in the end, I hope you are uber happy.

Luv
Nick

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[allislost13]

okay.. so I can be emo.. but I'm not because theres no point to be anymore.. I hope he stays my friend too and thank you for hoping that I'm uber happy.. hehe.. I'm getting there I promise.. Thank you for being a great friend Nick, It means a lot. =]

luv,
Renae

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[beyondbreaking]

Well, maybe it's what you needed to do, either way I don't see why you two broke up. Maybe you both are being thick and are plainly idiotic and don't listen to their own thoughts or feelings. But hey, as you said " he wasn't just a boyfriend, he was one of my best friends.. one person I could go to and talk about anything to.. the one person who made me laugh on the days that were black and the nights that were cold.". Danny will always be there for you when you need him, I'll be there when you need me. Danny still cares about you, I know you still care about him. To say otherwise would be completely foolish on your part. At least you are sure about your decision, because for you to throw away a relationship. Would be hurtful to my part, because I would of done a lot to have a girlfriend. Hey hey always remember, life is like a soda you control how it is, if you mess up and shake it, it'll explode on you and their will be nothing you can do to stop it.

As always,
Clarell

[allislost13]

I understand what you're saying clarell but I mean, it was hurting both of us. Even if right now him and I are saying how we're still here for each other and whatnot no one really knows what the last week or so of our relationship felt like. That was mostly my fault but there isn't anything neither one of us can do but sit here and be friends. I know that he'll always be here for me, and I know that you'll always be here for me, as long as you both know that I'll be here for you guys. and I deffinitly love the "life is like a soda" comment. Hey Clarell.. "just keep smiling.. I mean swimming.." lol

-Your babydoll.. ;]

Re: How could I miss this

[painful_embrace]

Renae, I realize after Julie left me a comment that I shouldn't have said, Just another girlfriend, right? I was stupid for saying that, hell, I don't know why I said it when it sure wans't what I was thinking. I've told you many times before that you have meant more that the world to me and that you always will. I guess I was trying to hide my TRUE feelings about all this from everyone who would read my entry. I told you before that I would still have feelings for you even if something bad had happened between us. I'm sorry Renae if I mislead you in my attempt to cover my own ass from trying to be too emo or something. You still mean more to me than i can put into words, and I shouldn't have let my own pride get in the way of what feelings i still have for you. If you can forgive me for it, i would appreciate it greatly, but if not that's understandable.

Re: How could I miss this

[allislost13]

Danny, I forgive you. It just really, really bothered me when I first read it and not to make you feel bad but it made me cry. Deep down I knew you didn't mean it but the fact that it sat there in your journal deffinitly hurt me some. I understand what you mean about saving your own ass from trying to be too emo because this entry almost didn't happen the way it sits there right now but I didn't want to do that because thats not me. You know that I still am here our relationship just didn't work at the end of all this. I understand that all the blame for that can be put on me but you know it as well. I just CAN NOT lose your friendship at the end of all this. That would be one of the worst things... well I need to get going. But I'll e-mail you back tomorrow probably..