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I just watched "Elizabethtown". If you're looking for inspiration, there's 2 hours and 14 minutes of it.
Wow. Kinda put's things into perspective. Kinda makes me want to become that person I sometimes try to be. Kinda reminds me that I have to continue on with looking deeper, whether I want to or not.
Attitude is a huge part of it, though. I've been so baffled as to how to go about changing my attitude, but that's it exactly: just change it. "Choose joy" as so many Christian's say. It's as simple as that, but it takes so much strength to do it.
Thank God I have more time. I'm growing more and more confused as the years pass by, but I'm growing. That's what matters.
I've realized how important friends and family are, although I've yet to completely put that into practice. I'm realizing that love is not a physical attraction or a magical feeling: it's admiration and respect. I've experienced how necessary God is in everything, and how every single time I try to do it on my own I fail. I'm finding that "Love generously, praise loudly, live fully" is something that I must follow, no matter what the cost.
It's so beautiful to finally realize that, amongst all the sorrow, confusion, heartbreak, and distress, I have learned, not only from my own mistakes, but from other's. Despite the pain and the things that I am still figuring out, Jesus has been with me every second, and has never given me more than I can handle.
He's been my driving force throughout it all. Even when I didn't realize, even when I was crying on my knees, He was that little spark of hope in my heart whispering, "Keep going." He's the hope that is consistently growing, that has gotten me excited for my future, whether or not it goes according to "my plans".
I've seen His will played out in my life, and I've seen mine. I've seen His attitude and heart played out through me, and I've seen mine. I've seen the plans He has for me, and I've seen mine. No matter what comes my way, I choose His.