whats wrong with me?

[allodeeseesswan]

i know in my case she did change... its like she became this clique-y stereotypical teenage girl. it makes me sick. and yet i think i see traces of who i thought she was?

she used to think for herself. i think?god... is this true.. As i keep thinking everything around me is changing and sucks, is it just me

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[kayakpride711]

A wise man once said, "Things do not change, we change."

You're changing. I'm changing. Ross is changing, Dillon is, Ned is, Ian is, Vince is, Nick is (as I list off everyone who I'm IMing)... We're all changing.

The problem is there's such a stigma attached with change. It's not a bad thing, it's a good thing! As long as people aren't changing for the worse of course. And trust me you're not.

I believe people get upset when others change because they longer have the same role in that person's life as they once did. We're all bitter and jealous to some extent or another whether we want to admit it or not.

I don't quite understand that last sentence though... explain?

If it counts for anything, you're still one of my favourite people in the world.

[apocalypso05]

i believe that wise person was henry david thoreau....

and no alliy, youre not a horrible person. when people change, its because theyve drawn conclusions based on mistakes they made in the past and subconciously and slowly change them. you havent changed in a negative direction, but it may just feel that way because youre not used to it. dont worry, its gonna take time, but i know in the end itll be for the better!

[ofdyinginsides]

mistake=me?

fuck that.

[ofdyinginsides]

ps. freud would be proud.

but that means your only analyzing one of 7 perspectives. (who thought id ever use something learned in school?)

[alwayswaiting4]

Alliy-
first of all, you are not a horrible person. and whether you have changed or not, i know that the change would have only been for the better. you are such a great person, and i hate so much that you are even considering that you are a horrible person. i am so mad at whoever wrote this about you. please don't hate yourself. there is nothing to hate. change is not a bad thing... XO Lindsey

[ofdyinginsides]

be mad. what good does that do?

[alwayswaiting4]

nothing, don't take everything so literally... also, i was talking to alliy

[ofdyinginsides]

'i am so mad at whoever wrote this about you.'
'also, i was talking to alliy'

i believe that was directed at me. thanks for dismissing me though.

[anonymous]

hey its guy , i know i havent talked to u in like a year lol but i happen to look at this and its not u well its part you but people change all the time thats the part of growing up do u think at 30 ur going to be the same person then when u were 15 of course not people just go through it at different times for me it was going into high school last year , just cus things suck at first which they really do
but ull met new people and make new friends just give it some time!

[ofdyinginsides]

first-ur.not.a.horrible.person.
it would kill me and everything ive ever believed if u were.

either way: if you hate everything else, or yourself, only you can make it right. when you live in a nightmare, its written all over your face.

ill be the first to admit ive changed. and probably in a lot of ways for the worse. so dont take this the wrong way>

it really fucks with me when i look at you and i see this person. and yet> in the distance, i think i see the girl i thought i knew? or is it just my my burning eyes>gone blurry.

[kayakpride711]

You and Ross should go start a club. It may be better for all parties involved.

[ofdyinginsides]

i think you and alliy already did?

[anonymous]

All of you are fighting while she feels horrible.

I just stumbled across this journal but may I say fuck that....

[anonymous]

actully, the first person i really talked to was her. and kayakpride and i talked and theres a reason for the tone of her posts. sometimes lj comments doesnt tell the whole story.