whoa

Mar 13, 2005 11:50

fall is here hear the yell


Wednesday, January 5th, 2005 7:41 pm
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now

i stood there looking at what i used to know
at how much things changed
i looked at christinas world remembering the time he said "should i sit across from you or next to you?" he sat next to me...her world was the new thing i stared at..it being across from me & all...& how my love sat a few seats over but dropped & left..

oh & then him
the numerous times he & i conversed. our tree. the massaging the laughs
the jones looking in his eyes..our folders

& fights with meg & then the hey ya shit.it was all so perfect & then i looked around & realized it was all gone all of it. i felt tears coming but wallowed them down..i felt so weak i really thought i would fall over..i wanted to die so bad

then she bear hugged me & we fell to the floor & just layed there for some time thinking & staring at the ceiling..it was nice feeling close to someone for a minute :)

now i dunno things change so fast! i dont wanna grow up im too afraid. im seriously scared to death. i hate how alone we all are..i wish i werent alone right now
i want to die

i think i accidently...yeah. i dont know but this sucks..alot. im nothing without him i know i wouldnt be able to go on.. please god please dont let me be alone dont make me be without him..

i want to die
i really do

3:43 pm - hey
do you know what its like to lose all reality
to feel litterally empty
like you are melting in & all

everything you thought you knew
everything you thought you had
gone
all of it gone
complete distortion to your world

oh

well

just wondering

6:57 pm - this is probably one of the few entries that will be sappy sweet...
i fuckin miss you.i know its only been since friday but i just do. you make me soo happy.
ok & now
i would to start by saying I LOVE YOU as well as thank you. ive had a very long day. My brother is killing me. This morning he was scheduled in at 6.AM. So he dropped me off last night so he could get in to work on time. Well needless to say he wasn't their at six am. so I walked home and i haven't slept. So that was my night slash morning. Then i just thought of how you try to help me ang get me to relax and make me sleep when i haven't even though that its time we could be hanging out you insist that i need to rest. thats one of mony reasons that i love you.

you said you loved it more then ever
you're just like a dream
do you believe what i sing now
you are the perfect drug
without you everything falls apart
im the lucky on
the time to hesitate is through
wish you were here
love is all you need
we loved with a love that was more then love
Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time
I'm a lot like you so please Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me

i just want to do something like crawl with you and nibble grass

How can i believe there's a butterfly inside you or me when all i see is fuzzy wor,?

Happiness is the feeling you're feeling when you want to keep felling it.

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that

not only in dreams..i swear i know wat this is

:)

current mood: in love
current music: lalala

4:36 pm - what the fuck bitch!@!
ok so now...do you hate me & want to see me in fucking pain or do you just really miss me or want to see me??

seriously now...what the fuck...what the hell

you wanna know why i said ok...huh?....cuz there was nothing i could say...did you wanna know how much it hurt..how much i miss you...how much im sorry...would you not, not belive it anyways?...did you want me to tell you how raw my wrist was when i lost you...did you want grrr ill finish later

i shall graduate & be gone & rid of this soon enough...
2004-12-15 20:32 (link) did you want me to tell you that i was in love with you....

would not..none of this make any difference?

i love you ok....& it doesnt mean shit

i wish you told me to my face...maybe i could hate you now

2:10 am - & what wasnt is now the norm...what was here is gone & gone is here
backwords :x EveryDay

Everyday *29
& there us nothing i can say *28
its not the past today *27
there is not point in looking back *26
this day to me is dead its gone *25
there is no point in holding on *24
but you're not there *23
im looking back *22
everyday, i try to feel *21
im deaf im dumb im blind *21
there is no say for me at all *20
im not that left hand girl *19
there is no point in holding on *18
& so am i *17
but now its gone *16
& when i did it it took a buzz *15
without you here i could not sleep *14
& when you are its not the same *13
You're never there *12
theres no point in lokking back *11
there is no point in holding on *10
all i had is gone for good *9
but theres no point *8
im looking back *7
Everyday i try to feel *6
Everyday i try to see *5
theres no say for me at all *4
theres no say for me today *3
thers no point in letting go *2
theres no point in holding on *1
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EVERYDAY

i was just thinking & i realized i hate school....i hate life...i hate home...i hate me...& i was thinking my life was pretty depressing when i wrote "la la la" & then i realized the last time i said that phrase..& i realized how long ago that was & then i came to the conclusion that my life has no meaning & i should just kill myself...like really i just want to die

the only reason to go on living is so that one of us is living

& that makes me want to die even more

isnt life just peachy!!

god damn I amuse myself so much….wow I write the most stupid bullshit ever!

wow....

really

but for real...yeah
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